Princess?

Chapter 45

Camilla's P. O. V.

I wake up the next morning and go into the dining room for breakfast. Everyone stands when I walk in, and sits down as I sit down

Breakfast is crowded today. Most of our guests stayed the night last night since the party went so late.

I look down the table to see Julian, talking with Rose. Louis comes in and sits down next to me. He kisses me, "Did you sleep well?"

I smile and nod, "Yes. Thank you. "

Louis follows my gaze down the table then looks back at me, "He's an idiot"

I look at him, confused, "What?"

"He's an idiot. Sure, you can't marry him. But once he's had a taste of what it's like to be with you, he won't be satisfied with anyone but you. He'll regret his choice soon. "

I smile and set my hand on his, "That's incredibly kind for you to say. But I don't think that's the case here. I think Julian is perfectly content with moving on to someone else. But it'll be okay. I'll get over it eventually"

Louis sighs, eating his breakfast, "Even though I know it's over another guy, I hate seeing you upset. "

I shrug, "I'm fine. Really. Listen, I think I'll go into town today with Beatrice. I would love some new dresses. "

Louis nods, "Absolutely! Just remember to take the guards."

I nod, "Of course. I'm going to go give Beatrice a call. "

I kiss Louis on the cheek and get up, walking out of the dining room.

***

Beatrice was busy today so I went into town by myself.

I'm in a store when I hear the bell on the door ring. Someone else has come in. I look up and see Rose and Julian walking in.

I try to hide but I'm too late, "Camilla?"

I look up at Julian, "Oh hi!"

Julian clears his throat, "Rose, this is Queen Camilla of France. Camilla, this is Rose MacClare. "

I nod and fake a smile, "Nice to meet you. You two have a lovely day. I really should be going. "

I brush by them and walk outside, walking down the sidewalk.

"Camilla, wait!"

I stop and turn around as Julian jogs over to me, "How are you?"

I sigh, "I'm fine. You?"

Julian shrugs, "I miss you"

I nod, "I can tell"

Julian furrows his brows, "What's that mean?"

I give him a look, "You told me last night that you wanted to completely end things between us so you could marry Rose. Obviously you don't miss me."

Julian groans, "I'm so dumb."

I pat his arm, "It was nice seeing you, Julian. I'm going to head about my day. I'll see you back at the castle. "

"Camilla, stop running away. "

I turn around, angry, "Running away?! I said I wanted to take a break. When I saw you with Rose last night, I wanted to call that break off. I wanted to be with you again. Then you told me you wanted to end things between us. I'm not running away. You are. I'm going to honor your decision to end things and be with Rose. I hope you two find happiness in each other. "

Julian grabs my hand, stopping me from walking away again. I quickly pull my hand away, "Don't touch me like that in public. "

Julian looks at me with puppy dog eyes, "Yes, I want to get married. But I still want to be with you. I'll marry and you'll be married to Louis, but you and I will have an affair. "

I shake my head, "It's already bad enough that I'm married. It'll be too bad if you're married too. Plus, if you marry her, you two will end up in England. Away from me. Maybe that's for the best. "

Julian grabs his hair in his hands, "What do you want me to do? Forsake any thoughts of marriage just so I can be with you?"

I shake my head, "Not at all. I want you to be happy. Whoever makes you the happiest is who you should be with. Have a nice day, Julian. "

I walk away, feeling tears gather in my eyes and a knot form in my throat. That was the hardest thing I've ever done.

***

I get back to the castle a few hours later and walk into my bedroom. When I open the door, I almost scream.

I set my hand on my chest, "Julian, you almost gave me a heart attack. What are you doing in here?"

Julian grabs my hands, pulling me down to sit next to him, "You told me that I should be with whoever makes me happiest. That's you. So, here I am."

I shake my head, "Nothing's changed, Julian. I can't marry you. We can't be a public couple. "

Julian shakes his hand, "I don't care anymore. No matter the circumstances, I want you. And that's all there is to it."

I grin and set my hand on Julian's face, kissing him. The door opens, causing us to fly apart. There stands Louis, in shock.

He clears his throat and walks in, shutting the door behind him, "I didn't figure the separation would last long. I mean, you guys are going to have a child together. I understand. "

Julian stands up, walking over to Louis. He holds his hand out, for Louis to shake it.

They shake hands as Julian says, "Louis, I appreciate how understanding you've been with this. I really appreciate the way you've kept this on the down low. I appreciate the fact that you are remaining faithful to Camilla and you're not killing us and our baby. It's very noble of you. And for that, I say thanks. "

Louis nods, "No problem. Actually, I just came to tell Camilla that I'm leaving for England. I have some things to attend to. So you two with have some alone time, without me around in the castle. "

I nod, "Are you leaving today?"

"Now, actually. "

I stand up and hug him, kissing his cheek, "Enjoy yourself. "

He nods and grabs his suitcase then walks out, shutting the door.

I smile at Julian, "That was really sweet of you. "

Julian shrugs, "I thought I owed that to him. "

I lay back on the bed, motioning for Julian to join me, "While Louis' gone, I think I'll need someone to keep me company in this big bed. "

Julian laughs, kissing me, "Are you sure that's not to dangerous?"

I shrug, "We have the King's protection. No one will come in here without me saying so anyway. It'll be fine. "

Julian grins, "Okay. I'll come in here once all the servants have gone to bed."

I grin, "Sounds good. "

Julian presses his lips against mine, "I love you"

I smile as I wrap my arms around his neck, "And I love you. "