Princess?

Chapter 55

Camilla's P. O. V.

I'm in the throne room, talking to Louis we when Julian walks in, carrying John.

I smile, "Hey"

Julian walks up to me, "Hi. John woke up from his nap. So I thought I would bring him in here. "

I nod, "That was sweet. "

I take John in my arms, bouncing him up and down. Julian lowers his voice, "Can we talk?"

I look at him and see how serious he looks, "Sure"

I look at Louis, "Will you look after John for me?"

He nods, taking John from me. I thank him then follow Julian out to sit on a bench in the garden.

Julian stares at the ground as he says, "Camilla, I missed you like hell while I was away. "

I sigh, looking away, feeling tears prick the back of my eyes, "I missed you too. But it was your choice to go. "

He groans, "I know that. Trust me, I've been beating myself up about since the day I left. I realized how stupid I was being. I love you and I don't care if I have to share you with Louis. "

I look at him as tears fall down my face, "Julian, how can I believe you? You've done this whole thing before. Leave me then come back saying you love me and can do this with me. But I don't believe you anymore. I can't be left again. I can't handle it anymore. "

Julian grabs my hands in his, "You can trust me this time. I promise. "

I shake my head as tears keep falling, "I love you so much. Which is why I need to let you go. You have to much power over my heart. And I need to take my heart back. I'm sorry. "

Julian stands up, kisses my forehead and says, "Just think about it. I'm so sorry. I love you. "

then he walks away. I set my head in my hands and cry until I hear someone behind me.

"Are you alright. "

I sit up and look to see Steve standing there. I smile and quickly wipe my tears, "Yes, I'm fine. "

He sits down next to me, "I saw you talking to Julian. "

I shrug, "It's nothing, Steve. Really. "

Steve sighs and grabs my hand in his, "You can trust me with anything. "

I smile at him but don't say anything. Steve cups my cheek with his hand and whispers, "I want to kiss you so bad right now. "

I laugh, "I'm sorry, but that can't happen. I'm not in a position to give myself to any man right now. I've been hurt to much recently. "

Steve frowns, "I'm not going to give up though. "

I laugh and nudge him, "Good. I don't want you too. "