Raven Hood

Chapter eleven

So here I am. Outcast yet again. It doesn't feel good. It really doesn't.

I still can't believe he rejected me. My heart is torn. I can't stop thinking about him, and I can't stop crying. No matter how hard I try. Little tears stream down my face. Clouding my vision.

But the pain hurts the most. My heart has been torn and I can never be repaired. Never. Unless Jackson was to un-reject me.

He can still do that. Unless I accept his rejection. But I don't think I could ever do that. Look at me! I'm moaning about my 'boyfriend' more than my own brother.

No wonder Jackson rejected me! I'm such a self-centred jerk. I'm mean. I'm not beautiful. I'm every bad thing in the world.

I understand now. But I have changed. For the better or for the worst I can not tell. Yet. I care what people think now. I think badly of myself. I have low self-esteem. I am a failure! And I feel terrible. Look here I am ranting about myself! Again.

I'm a horrible person! Again! My wolf wines and whimpers every second. It's getting really annoying, but I deserve it. I drag my paws along the ground.

I guess I'm rouge now. I heard Jackson talking about them.

Everyone hates them. Therefore they hate me. Well, they should. I just wander between territories. I guess?

I reach a border. I debate on whether to cross or not. What have I to lose? If they kill me. Well, it'll save me doing it. I was planning on committing... Well, killing myself.

Would be better for everyone actually. Better for me too. I cross the border with only a moment's hesitation. Immediately I hear the thud of paws. A growling comes from all sides as four wolves appear.

They move forward trying to push me out of the territory. I hold my ground. May as well.

They snarl and one of them disappears. A guy appears out of the bush. He's only wearing basketball shorts.

He's hot! I'll say it! Seriously he is. Nothing compared to Jackson but... I sob softly, in my head that is.

"Shift", the guy says. Surely they wouldn't ask a girl to shift in front of them! Wait do they think I'm a guy? My wolf is pretty big...

Wait! That's creepy. "Shift"! He says loudly in a much more annoyed tone. He was using an alpha tone but it had next to no effect on me. Which is strange...

I shift on the spot seeing as my clothes wouldn't disappear.

They all gasp. Just quickly but cover it with coughs. The alpha guy looks at me. He just stares while I stand there feeling rather subconscious.

"Uh hello"? I say.

The alpha shakes his head and glares at me.

"Why did you not shift when I first alpha commanded you to? Unless you are an alpha which you can not be you must bow your head. You can't help it so how did you not"?

"Didn't affect me". I mumble.

"Speak up"!

"Didn't affect me"! I yell at him.

"That loud enough for ya"?

They all seem pretty shocked at my little tantrum. The alpha glares at me.

"What is it you want"?

"Huh"?

"Why are you on our territory"?

"Just passing through really. I'm rouge now so that's what I do".

"No reason"?

"Look Mr alpha", I say making jazz hands.

"I don't even know where I am. Do you really expect me to have a reason for me to wander onto your territory"?

"We have to be careful. You should be too. With that attitude, you're likely to be killed".

"I would mind that", I say sadly.

"Why"?

"Why? Why? I watched my brother die right before my eyes less than a day ago! You know why? No? Because I was running away after my mate rejected me! My brother was getting me to come back. I told him no. He ran back but never made it home. He was still alive after being hit by the car. I watched him die. And I couldn't do a thing about it"! I scream tears rolled like a thunderstorm as I ranted out my problems to complete strangers.

Wow! That sounded a lot better in my head.

The guys have sympathetic looks on there faces. Well, all but the Alpha.

He's wearing an 'Alpha mask'. It hides outside emotions, only alphas have them.

"Would you like to pass through our territory"? He says blankly. How rude! Could he not show a little concern? I nod.

He grabs my hand and extends his claws. He draws what I presume is his pack mark or a seal to say I'm allowed to cross. Probably thinks I won't be any trouble. Being a girl and being emotionally unstable. Fools.

But I won't cause trouble. I'm not a bad person. Who am I kidding? I'm a terrible person! I wander towards the middle of their territory. The smell of blueberry pie wafts to my nose.

I walked as fast as my human legs would carry me. Nothing compared to a wolf. A township comes into view. I just follow the main road when I reach it. Everyone stares at me and rushes away obviously noticing I'm not from their pack.

At least they know never to underestimate an enemy. I throw my hands up in annoyance. I jump as two buildings light up in flames on either side behind me.

Fire! That brings back bad memories. I run hard and fast. I run for my life. People scream and yell behind me. A guy about 14 attacks me! I mean literally!

He leaps and attacks me thinking I lit the fire. Well, I didn't. Did it? No! I defiantly did not light the buildings on fire! Was not me!

But somehow I don't think he'll listen for an explanation.

I throw him off me. But soon I'm surrounded by men of all ages.

Oh sh...