Holding Hands;lrh

Fourteen*

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It's been a week since I last saw my dad now, and Luke and I have been hanging out almost everyday this past week and it's been great. While I'm with him I forget everything for a while. I told myself not to get attached, but what did I do? I got attached. Luke kinda just completes life for me, and I couldn't even help getting attached. It's like he's been in my life this entire time, and he never moved from Australia. I love when he's with me because he can always make me laugh and smile like no one. His icy blue eyes always have away of finding mine, and I just can't help it.

But to every good thing there is always a bad. Everytime he leaves everything comes back and hits twice as hard. The only thing I can think about when he leaves are the voices in my head telling me that Luke doesn't like me because I'm me. They sit there and tell me my flaws as if I can't already see them. I can see my pudgy fat stomach. I can see my humungous thunder thighs. Thanks for reassuring that they're there.

"Hey," Luke said sitting down on the bench. I was at the park near our school waiting for him, but as soon as he did it caused my heart to race. I could feel my hands starting to get clammy and my stomach was going in whirls. Why him?

"Hey how are you?" I asked keeping my head down.

"I'm good," he sighed, but it was clear he wasn't. I mean the frown on his face told me so.

"No your not. Tell me what's wrong," I said and I felt my heart break at the sight that unfolded in front of me. Luke looked up at the same time I did, with tears threatening to fall from his eyes and his lip trembling. You could tell he was letting his wall down for now because the tears finally found their way down his cheeks. Luke really isn't one to cry in front of others, and so for him to be crying in front of me shocked me to bits.

"Its nothing," he said with a weak voice.

"Obvisously it is. I mean come on Luke its making you cry. I promise I won't tell anyone,"

"I'm sick and tired of what's going on in my life. I'm suck and tired of life in general," he said finally breaking. I instantly took him in my arms and hugged him. I mean of anyone to know how it feels to be done with life I should
know. I get that feeling way too much.

"I'm sick and tired of my parents taking advantage over me and treating me as something other than their son, and I hate the kids at school making fun of me all over again. The main reason we left Australia was because my dad was caught beating me, and we fled the country a while ago. I just cant go through it anymore it hurts to much."

As soon as Luke stopped talking I was shocked. Just thinking of someone hurting Luke made my blood boil, but knowing it was his own father that caused him this much pain made even more furious. I cant imagine it mainly because I cant believe it. I can't even imagine how bad it makes Luke feel.

"Luke...,"

" Don't say you're sorry 'cause I really don't want to hear it," he interrupted me.

"I wasn't going to,"

"sorry,"

"It's okay,"

"No it's not,"

"Yea Luke it is, and everything will be okay,"

"Yea okay," he laughed.

"It will be Luke because I'm always going to be here for you," I argued. It was silent for a minute before Luke looked up. I stared into his ice blue eyes, momentarily getting lost in them.

"Do you really mean it?" He asked bringing me back to reality.

"Yea," I said and I looked at his red chapped lips. I wanted to kiss him so bad right now, but I can't. It would ruin everything we have going.

Next thing I know I was leaning in closer and so was Luke. By the time the tips of our noses touched I was freaking out inside. Luke turned his head to the side and that's when he lightly touched his lips with mine. I could feel how chapped they were, but it didn't matter at that moment. Luke Hemmings was kissing me. I kissed back lightly before Luke deepened the kiss, and my hand automatically found its way to his neck. It was this indescribable feeling I had. I was filled with warmth and happiness from this moment, and I never wanted this to end. Much to my dismay it ended as Luke pulled away shortly afterwards.

"I really like you Elle," Luke admitted to me making me smile. I could feel my cheeks redden, and I felt him brush a piece of my hair behind my ear.

"Good cause I do too," I admitted.

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Hey guys... Thanks for reading this it means a lot! It makes me happy to see you guys reading this... Hope you all enjoyed it.

Okay so tomorrow is Sounds Good Feels Good and I'm excited! Who else is?

Question of the day is:
Which track are you most excited to hear off the new album?

- mines the girl that cried wolf Ngl even though I've heard it already...

So lately I went to homecoming and it was fun... I got my hopes up today and then they got crushed so right at the moment I'm quite sad anyway you guys really aren't here to hear about my problems anyway thank you all!

Love you al so much with much love,
-dauntlessluke <3 xx :)