High School Sucks

Chapter Seventeen

(A week after Siobhan has left)

Ashton's POV***

I promised Luke, Michael and Calum that I'll never do this again. I promised them and now look at me on my bathroom floor my arms covered in blood that is coming from my cut up arms. I cry into my hands, I am a failure. I feel as if my heart is breaking and it's nearly shattered into tiny pieces. Siobhan's Skype calls were the only thing that kept me happy but now her Skype calls are becoming less and less because of the time zones.

I weakly get up from my bathroom floor and walk over to my sink. I clean off my cuts, the water makes it sting and I wince in pain. I find some gauze and wrap up my arms, I hide the razor in an empty hair gel container. I here a ding coming from my laptop. Shit Siobhan is calling me!

I run to my laptop and put on a long sleeve shirt. I press accept and a little boy who I think is Siobhan's little brother comes up on the screen.

"Hey your Ashton right?" He says, his voice a higher pitch.

"Yeah. Where's your sister?" I ask confused.

"Well she's really sad and she's singing and playing guitar. I wanted to show you her!" He smiles, I chuckle back. He picks up the laptop and walks down some stairs and out a door leading outside. He faces the laptop towards Siobhan is under a tree in the rain, she's drenched, her clothing turned darker, her hair sticking to her face and her bracelets are dripping. I see her doing something on her guitar, then she's starts to sing.

"She would not show that she was afraid,
But being and feeling alone was too much to face,
Though everyone said that she was so strong,
What they didn't know is that she could barely carry on,
But she knew that she would be okay,
So she didn't let it get in her way,

Sometimes it all gets a little too much,
But you gotta realize that soon the fog will clear up,
And you don't have to be afraid, because we're all the same,
And we know that sometimes it all gets a little too much,

She would always tell herself she could do this
She would use no help it would be just fine
But when it got hard she would lose her focus
So take my hand and we'll be alright
And she knew that she would be okay,
So she didn't let it get in her way,

Sometimes it all gets a little too much,
But you gotta realize that soon the fog will clear up,
And you don't have to be afraid, because we're all the same,
And we know that sometimes it all gets a little too much, yeah.

A little too much, I said a little too much, oh

Sometimes it all gets a little too much,
But you gotta realize that soon the fog will clear up,
And you don't have to be afraid, because we're all the same,
And we know that sometimes it all gets a little too much yeah!

Sometimes it all gets a little too much,
But you gotta realize that soon the fog will clear up,
And you don't have to be afraid, because we're all the same,
And we know that sometimes it all gets a little too much."

I knew she wrote the song was about her, but tried to hide it. Wow.

"Hey Siobhan! I have Ashton here on Skype!" Her brother yells. She snaps her head up and gets up off the ground. She walks over to the laptop.

"Hey gorgeous." I smile breathlessly at her flawless features even tho she's drenched in rain.

"Hey." She whispers back and smiles. She takes me up to her room and turns the laptop around to face the wall so she could get changed.