Words I Never Said (Luke korns fanfic)

Chapter 19

Madelyn's POV

It's 3 weeks after Luke left campus, I've noticed my grades dropping and people whispering about me, i choose to ignore the people talking about me behind my back, I try really hard to focus on my grades and everything but it's just so hard.

"Madelyn, please pay attention, what's going on with you your usually the best one in here" my dance teacher snaps at me

"I'm sorry ma'am" I say look around at everybody and then get into the right position. We're currently in ballet and I would rather just go back home and hug my mom and cry to her, but I can't. I'm a big girl now.

"It's okay, see me after class" she tells me and I nod softly. Oh no. Another lecture.

"Alright thank you everybody for the wonderful class today. Go get changed into hip hop clothing and come right back!" The teacher says clapping her hands together

"Thank you mrs Rosie" we say and bow and then everybody scurries out of  the room to get changed, I walk over to her.

"Madelyn." She says looking up at me from her papers she's holding

"I know I'm lacking and struggling I know I know, okay I'm really trying, things are just really hard for me at the moment I promise you I'll work harder and pay more attention, starting in hip hop" I say and take a big sigh.

"Sweetie calm down.." She tells me rubbing my back as she pulls me into a hug. I hug her back, wow it feels really nice to hug somebody other then Jenny who's hugs are forceful, no, Rosie's are gentle and caring like my moms.

"It'll be okay I heard ... He .. Left, you can always come to me ok? This place is your second home yes?" She tells me, I love how she's only in her early 30's, she's more like an older sister to me.

"Thank you.. Thank you so much.." I tell her

"Anytime sweetie. Now, focus on getting better but that doesn't mean zoning out, yes?" She asks looking at me, I nod smiling small

"Good now go get changed" she tells me patting my back, I nod and hurry out of the dance room and Into the dancers room, I grab my hip hop wear and go into the bathroom and lock the door behind me, I take off my leotard and look at myself in the mirror staring at the cuts all over my rib cage and stomach.

"Shit" I say realizing my shirt is going to show my stomach, I quickly put back on my leotard and just put the shirt and pants over it, I take my hair out of the bun and into a regular pony tail and then walk out of the bathroom and Put my ballet tights and shoes in with my bag, I grab my tennis shoes and socks and put them on and head back into the room meeting everybody else.

"Everybody ready?" Mrs Rosie asks looking around at all of us, we all nod and start dancing, I drown out every thoughts about Luke and just dance. I dance from the heart and it feels amazing

**

After dance I walk back to my dorm and when I reach it I walk inside and plop onto my bed groaning

"How was dance?" I hear coming from the corner of the room

"Fine" I say sitting up and looking at the corner to see my mom

"Mommy" I say getting up quickly and running over to her hugging her tightly. She hugs me back and I cry into her shoulder as she holds me.

"Shh baby it's okay your stronger then this" she says rubbing my back and stroking my hair

"I can't do it anymore" I say in between crying.

"Yes you can honey" she says as I continue crying she walks over to my bed sitting on it and against the wall, I climb up beside her and lay my head on her lap staring at the opposite side of the room

**

A few minutes later I'm out of tears so I just lay there staring at the wall blankly.

"He's going to regret hurting my baby" she says lightly, stroking my hair. I stay silent

"I thought you couldn't afford coming here" I say after a few more moments of silence

"I sold some of your dads old things" she says sighing

"Mom.. You didn't have to... Those met so much to you..." I say sitting up and looking into her eyes with worry

"Honey I would give up anything to be with my hurt baby girl" she says with a small smile, I hug her tightly and she hugs me back

"Mom.. I don't think it'll ever stop hurting.." I say

"It will it just takes time, after losing you father it took me very long.. I'm still to this day not over it.." She tells me and I lay back down on her lap and yawn, I grab her hand and start playing with her fingers as her other hand plays with my hair, it feels like I'm four years old again. Oh how I miss it.

Luke's POV

"Alright I think that's the last box!" I say to Mikey as I carry it into me and Mikey's new apartment in L.A

"Finally"  Mikey says rolling his eyes at me, I laugh at his reaction and then plop onto the floor and sniff the carpet

"Ah it smells like L.A carpet" I say

"Luke you idiot. Carpet is carpet."Mikey says sitting down on the floor as well, as we really need to get furniture.

"Yes.. But it's in L.A!" I say with a big grin on my face

"Oh yi yi yi" Mikey says and looks around at our newly apartment

"Bro. We really made it here" he says smiling at me

"I know.. Wow" I say looking at our cameras and camera tripods that are already set up from a video we will end up filming later.

"this is seriously happening.." I say standing up and inhale a deep breathe

"How do you think Madelyn is..?" Mikey asks me and I bite my lip at the mention of her name

"I'm sure she's fine. Being a great student like always. Probably dancing right now in fact" I say not realizing I'm smiling at the name Madelyn until Mikey grins at me.

"Where over Mikey" I say to him

"I won't believe it until she gets a boyfriend and you get a girlfriend" he says jogging up the spiral staircase. I sigh and walk onto the balcony and look over it at all the cars rushing by and the people walking. Here's to a new chapter in my life. Without Madelyn.