Words I Never Said (Luke korns fanfic)

Chapter 32

Luke's POV

"I'm gonna go .. Back to campus.." I say standing up and shaking so badly I can barely walk

"You going to be okay..?" Kirby asks hugging me once more, I hug back gently and nod as I start to cry again, she rubs my back and then let's go of me, I turn around and walk over to Madelyn's mom and brother

"Ma'am .. If you guys need anything.. and I mean anything.. call me" I say wiping my eyes and then give her brother a small but meaningful hug

"Thank you Luke.. Same to you" her mom says after a sigh

"Of course" I nod small and then turn around and start to walk to the door

"Luke.. Wait" her mom says and I turn around to look at her, she walks over to me

"I know this is so soon.. But do you think you could say something at the funeral..? You knew her better then anyone else.." She tells me trying to smile but I can see the sadness filled in her eyes, i try not to cry as I nod my head and hug her gently, she hugs me back crying

"She didn't deserve this" she cries

"She's in a better place.." I tell her rubbing her back, she pulls away and takes a seat again, I nod at her brother and then walk out the door and to my car, I slide into my car and struggle to put In the keys from shaking so badly, finally i get fusteraited and slam my fist into the steering wheel and cry out

"Why did you take her away"

"WHY"

"SHE DESERVED SO MUCH MORE"

I continue to hit the steering wheel and cry.. Until I can't cry any longer. I drive back to the campus and park, I sit there for a few seconds and remember all the memories of Madelyn sitting in this car with me, I look over at the passenger seat and look at the floor, her extra shoes she always kept in my car where sitting there, I smile through the tears and pick them up, I look at them and put them back down on the floor. I step out of the car and close the door, I walk up to the dorms and everywhere I look people are staring at me and apologizing for my loss, funny they didn't even know her. I walk up to her dorm and knock on the door hoping Jenny will open so I can grab some of her things for myself.. No answer

"Jenny please.. Open up"

after no answer for a while I look at my keys and find the one that Madelyn gave me one time, I open up the door and walk inside, everything on Jenny's side is gone, she must've left.. Poor girl.. I look at Madelyn's side and it's all left untouched, like she was just here, but then again, she was just here. I take a seat on her bed and pick up a pillow that was her favorite, she always insisted to sleep on it even when we would go on road trips, I hold it close to me and smell it, I take in the scents that are familiar.

"Luke?" I hear a voice, I wipe my eyes quickly and look up at the door

It's the headmaster or principle of the school.

"I'm so sorry.." I stand up and continue holding onto the pillow tightly

"Don't be sorry son.. I'm so sorry for your loss.. But we need you to leave everything in here, her mother will be coming by to pack everything and do what she wants with it, if you want some of this stuff, you'll have to take it up with her" he tells me and I nod while crying, he sighs and walks over to me, hugging me. So many hugs today, but I need every little one.

"she had so much to live for, she had dreams" I say as I cry

"I know.. I know.." He says and then looks around the room, as do I.

"Take that pillow.. You need it.." He says pointing to her favorite pillow and I nod

"Thank you.. Thank you so much" I say picking up the pillow again and shove it into my chest, burying my face into it. I hear him sigh and then leave, closing the door behind him. I lay down on her bed and cuddle the pillow closely, I stare at the wall and gently flutter my eyes trying to get the tears to disappear, I feel my eyes getting heavier and heavier as I start to fall asleep, it feels like she's here and I'm holding her again, and for a second or two, I even think I see her.

Authors NOTE

I can't even update without crying omg. Like just imagining this actually happening, it makes my heart break ):