Words I Never Said (Luke korns fanfic)

Chapter 30

It's a few days after the show and it keeps getting closer and closer to summer break, still havnet heard from Luke, and I'm starting to get really worried about him.

"Do you wanna help me carry these out to the car?" Jenny asks as she continues to pack boxes that she's taking back home, she's leaving the year early, so that means I'm no longer going to have a roommate for the rest of the year.

"Yeah of course" I tell her and then stand up walking over to her bed and picking up a box from it, she walks out the door of the room and I follow her carrying the boxes that I had previously picked up.

"I don't wanna leave" she sighs and I nod. I'm upset that she's leaving so I don't say much.

"You're going to be okay.. Right?" She asks and I nod quickly

"Of course I will be" I say as we reach her car and she takes the boxes from me after putting her own in the car and then putting the ones I had into the car.

"Good.. I just didn't know since... You know.. Still no sign of Luke.." She says as she slams the car door close making sure all of the boxes stay in.

"Yeah I mean, I'm still upset, but he'll reach  me eventually.." I say, I'm not sure if I believe what I just said or not. But I said it.

"Only three more boxes.." She says looking around the beautiful campus.

"I'm going to miss you so much" I say hugging her tightly.

"We need to be roommates again next year.." She tells me hugging me back.

"Yes.. Please keep in touch with me over the summer" I say sighing as we pull out of the hug

"Of course I will" she smiles, I can tell she's trying to fight back tears. Wow, the tough Jenny herself, crying. I never thought I would see that, we walk back into our dorm and grab her last three boxes and carry them out, loading the car, we shut it together and then we stand in silence for a while, staring.

"Well.." She says turning to me, I turn my face away from her so she doesn't see my tears that are running down my face

"I guess this is goodbye.." She tells me

"For now.." I say

"For now." She says and smiles, I smile back and she gets in her car, and before I know it, she's gone.

I walk back into my, not me and Jenny's , just mine, room. I sit on the empty bed and look around, I frown seeing how empty the room felt. I grab my laptop and click onto YouTube, I decide to look at Kirby's channel because I know she does videos, I go on a stalking spree, I then run across a video she uploaded with.. Mikey Murphy? In it. Mikey? I didn't know he had a YouTube. I scroll into the description of the video and click onto his channel, I look through it, and my heart stops at what I see. Luke korns.

I slowly click onto his page.

533,724 subscribers.

What.

I click on his latest video.

"Hey guys, it's me Luke! Welcome back to my bedroom!"

I quickly grab my phone as I feel fear reaching me, he's famous? My boyfriend is famous. It terrifies me, it terrifies me that he has never told me this. It terrifies me that he had a life that I completely did not know about. How did I not know about this. I scroll through my contacts until it hits his contact, I click on it and on the call button quickly.

It rings until it hits voice mail like usual.

"How could you lie to me? Are you even who you say you are? How could you keep this from me? Am I just not good enough to be in that part of your life?" I say through tears. "I can't keep doing this Luke. I can't.. I can't do this.. Are you even with your family? .. I can't ... Bye Luke.." I hang up and stare at the YouTube account that is currently on my laptop, I let tears stream down my face, this might not seem like a big deal to some people, but to me it does. He's this whole other person that I don't even know about, does he just not trust me? Is that it? Did he Think I wasn't good enough? did he think I would be someone else? Did he not like me. Was this all just a lie? He probably has some super pretty model girlfriend.

I stand up from the bed to go get a drink of water, I'm starting to feel major head pains. I fall to the ground and start shaking really badly, I can't control it, I feel pain in my head, worse then I've ever felt any pain before, my vision starts going crazy and blurry, I can't see anything, and then I start to wonder where I am and who I am, what's going on?

"So I think we should go run some laps?" I hear Kirby's voice enter the room. I lay there in complete silence and still because it hurts so bad and I can't see anything.

"Oh my gosh, Madelyn!" She screams and drops beside me and dials a number on her phone, i hear her speak into the phone

"We need a ambulance, now" is all I hear before it all goes black.