The innocent life of an awkward teen(originally 'My Rants')

Hey guys

Now remember my titles suck and I still literally I don't know what to name any of these rants, so yeah.

Yeah when I got home I ate, cleaned the dishes, practiced a little bit, and read. Reading isn't usually something I spend my free time on, but you know it's good to read. I was at a really good part of this book, you know that part where you just can't put the book down, yeah, I ended up reading for 2 hours. It was very peaceful, I feel like I should do it more often.

So in orchestra, the music we've been working on lately has a lot of parts were we have to divide up in groups. I've gotten the best parts, but not because our orchestra director knows I'm not the strongest player. I can't really be too hurt by that, because the people she thinks are the strongest players have all had a whole year more of experience than me. To me a year doesn't seem like a lot, but it makes all the difference. In my head (I'm pretty sure this is true, by the groups she's been picking lately) that our orchestra director thinks there's 3 different levels of skill in the violas.

Top group - there are three people in this group who had all had 1 more year of experience than me

Middle group - not the best but not the worst (me)

Bottom - now to say this group is terrible would be lying, because if they were terrible they wouldn't be in chamber, but there 3 people in this group, and yeah

I'm not going to put names in these groups, because I know these names, but I feel like it would be mean to say there names, I mean I think putting them into groups is bad enough as it is, but I'm just inferring these groups form what our directors choices have been.

Here's the thing I've learned (I might have already mentioned this but this is how I truly feel), that is I want to be put in that top group I'm going to have to work my butt off, practice a LOT more, listen to all the advise my private instructor and director give me, and I'm going to have to take this year a lot more seriously than last year.

Yep I just had to get that out. Also today I feel like today, half the school was missing. EVERYBODY IS GETTING SICK, I'M ALREADY STARTING TO COUGH, I REALLY DON'T WANT TO BE NEXT!!! Yeah that would suck.

I'm glad my rants are starting to get longer again, I didn't like that they were short and you probably didn't either. But that's it so... bye
~Kayla