The innocent life of an awkward teen(originally 'My Rants')

Missed my birthday

Yep I didn't rant on my birthday, I know it's weird but it's just been crazy lately and so I haven't really had to time to do a lot of stuff lately, so yeah.

I've been really stressed these few weeks, lately I've just had a ton of homework, tests I wasn't ready for, dumb chair tests, and FREAKING MATH QUIZZES, yeah those math quizzes have just pushed it. I'm so mad with all this stuff and at the same time I just want to sit in a corner and cry. The worse part of all this is that my grades are slowly coming where I don't want them, now I'm not failing, I mean to most people high B's are great, but the 2 high B's I have make me feel like my world is falling apart, because I've been getting A's and really nothing else, plus my parents are not happy about the B's, so it's just a big mess. (I'm probably freaking out to much about this, but I just want to pull my hair out).

Moving on, I have sectionals tomorrow, great I have to get up at 6 something play my instrument for 30 minutes then, I really don't know. Once sectionals end school doesn't start for another 55 minutes, so basically an hour. I'll probably just do my Spanish stuff tomorrow, but yeah.

I've also been really worried about some of my friends, they haven't been through the best times, but I'm going to support them all the way. I won't leave them, I'll help them in every way I can. It's part of my job as a friend, you know, to help, even if I'm not the best helper, I've got to try, because that's the type of person I am, worried about others more than myself, and I will always be there for you guys, I hope y'all know that.

I don't know what's been up lately, but recently a lot of people have been keeping secrets from me and pretending like it doesn't matter if I know or not. I've kind of been playing along with it kind of pretending to be happy they're hiding them, but really it just makes me feel out like I don't really mean to them what they say I do, I just feel less. I really don't know if that makes sense, but it's hard to put this into words, so that will have to do for now.

Today I've just been tired, stressed out, worried, and really rather emotional, I almost cried at least once today, but only one person saw. I feel like burying myself in a whole and just forget all these bad things and going to a happy place, but I've just got to push through it, because this is reality, and lala land isn't really somewhere you get to go to.

Yeah so that's basically it today, I hope the week will get better, but now bye.
~Kayla