The innocent life of an awkward teen(originally 'My Rants')

Bleh...

This week hasn't been the best week so far, ever since Monday I've felt really crappy and tired at school, idk why because I'm not sick, my allergies aren't acting up, maybe it's the amount of sleep I'm getting?? It's probably that because lately I've been changing up my sleep patterns and I've trying to get more sleep, and I changed it kind of quickly so that's probably what's effecting my mood.

Then I have a ton of make-up work to do because I'm to be missing school, again. I'm missing 2 tests, the one in algebra we are starting tomorrow because it's a CCA, and it's supposed to be a really long test that reviews a lot of things, then one in social studies, but I'm kind of glad I'm missing that one because social studies isn't my best subject and so I'll more time to study and know the material better. In science I'm missing so really important stations we're doing in that class to prepare for STAAR, which I probably will have to go and make up on Friday morning like I did last week. I've got all my assignments ready to turn in, I've just got to go over them tomorrow before I turn them in.

I just hope Friday makes up for this whole week, that we can have a really good time and do amazingly, because I know everyone has worked really hard. the thing about being in big group like this, especially one at this level, is that because we are in a higher group we are expected more from, which makes 99% of us work really hard. Those ones who don't think much of it or just don't care stand out because the rest of us are trying, and there is a way that is shown, the people who are ALWAYS sitting in the back, or the ones that our director is always asking about and where they are and why they haven't shown up. Our director is actually making another group for next year, philharmonic, and I think that group is going to be one of two things, one, here are going to be that group of 1%, the kids who aren't trying, not showing up, or just don't care but at a chamber level, two the kids who almost to the chamber level, but just quite didn't make it because of ineligibility, or the fact that they just don't quite have the technique or preparation,or the fact of how they act in class now by no means am I saying that if you get put in this group are you a bad musician or anything like that, (and please don't take any offense to this if your school has this kind of thing and you are in it, this from a personal opinion and my personal experience and what I have seen, every school has different expectations and playing levels, I'm talking about specifically what I think for my schools experience and expectations), I actually want to encourage you, please keep pushing because if you are really committed to playing (or what ever it is you are compassionate about), I know you can play to be in that top level, it's in you, you're so close, don't think all hope's lost because it's amazing what changes you can make in yourself (again this falls into self experience because just by adapting a different practicing technique I went from always sitting 4th and 5th chair to sitting 2nd, and guess what, I actually didn't think it was possible). So please DON'T GIVE UP, and take that advice for anything because by a simple change in yourself you change everything around you.

Okay I don't know if I'll get to rant again before Friday either way I will try to update y'all on Friday so byeeeeee.

~Kayla