From Rags to Riches

I thought you'd left me

Rebecca:

I immediately clutch my head as I wake up. I have never known such intense pain in my head before. I manage to force my eyes open and I'm greeted with bright lights that burn my eyes. I moan and carefully move my head to the side when I feel someone squeeze my hand.
"Rebecca? Can you hear me?" I force one eye open and I see Megan's worried face stare back at me.
"What happened?" I murmur and she gives me a sad smile.
"You were in an accident. It's ok you're-"
"Where's Sienna? Where is she?!" I ignore the throbbing pain in my head and try to sit up, but Megan forces me to lie back down.
"Rebecca calm down, she's ok. She's on the children's ward. She fractured her arm and she had some glass shards in her head, but they've got them all out. She's resting"

I flinch as she tells me what my daughter went through.
"I need to be with her, she's alone" I panic but again Megan urges me to lie down.
"Jordan is with her" she tells me and I frown. Why would Jordan still be here? I treated him so bad and he still comes back?
"He is?" I ask. Megan's smile grows and nods her head.
"He came in here when Sienna was taken down to get the glass removed and then went straight back. He hasn't left her side" she informs me and my smile grows. I manage to sit up and this time Megan let's me.
"I need to go and see her, please let me go" I practically beg and Megan stands up.
"Let me get the nurse, I don't want to upset anyone" she giggles and makes her way out of my room.

Thirty minutes later I wheel myself through the children's ward and; considering the circumstances, I manage to smile. Jordan is holding Sienna's little hand and she's laughing at something he had said. Just then Sienna looks my way and gasps.
"Mummy!" She exclaims with a grin and Jordan's eyes meet mine. They look tired and the shine that's normally in them has completely gone. I wheel myself over to her bed and place my hand on her leg because her other arm is in a sling.
"Hey sweetheart, how are you feeling?" I ask her while I feel Jordan's eyes burning in to me.
"My head hurts" she tells me and I can't help but smile.
"I know honey, but you'll get better soon. I promise we will go home and everything will be ok" I reassure her and she grins.
"Home? With daddy?" The excitement radiates off of her and I mentally curse myself for using the word 'home'. I look at Jordan and his eyes have a glimpse of hope in them; pleading with me to say yes. I look back at Sienna and I put on a smile.
"We'll see honey" I kiss her head with struggle, and I see Jordan move in his chair to help me. I sit back down and look into his eyes.
"Can we talk?" I ask and he nods before standing up and kissing Sienna on her head.
"We'll be back peanut" he smiles before grabbing my wheelchair and taking me outside.

"How are you feeling?" He asks me. His hands are in his pockets and he's shifting his weight from one leg to the other. I wheel myself over to the line of chairs and he follows; sitting in the end chair.
"I'm ok, my head hurts like hell but I'm more worried about Sienna. Did the doctor tell you what happened?" I look down at my laced fingers as I mentally prepare myself for the story. I cannot remember anything about the accident; everything goes black when I think about it. Jordan clears his throat and I look up into those stormy grey eyes I've grown to love.
"A motorbike's tire blew out as he overtook you, he crashed into your side and then your car collided into a pole; which was Sienna's side. The window smashed so the glass got into Sienna's skull" his eyes became two great orbs of pain as he told me the story. I feel the tears spill over and before I can wipe them away Jordan's hand cups my cheek; brushing the tears away with his thumb. I relax into his touch but he takes his hand away.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have done tha-" I cut him off by placing my lips on his. I miss his touch, his voice, his smell. I feel him relax as he kisses me back; a gentle, tender kiss that makes my heart melt every time. I slowly pull away and our foreheads touch.
"Rebecca I-" he begins but again I cut him off. I know he's going to apologise, I know he feels like it's all his fault; I made him feel that way. But now, I know it isn't his fault. Everyone has a past, his just happens to be more colourful than others.
"Shh, it's ok. I'm sorry for taking it out on you. I don't blame you, your past is what it is; you're with me now. God I've missed you" I whisper against his lips and I feel his thumb run along my cheekbone.

"She came to my office before I got the call from Megan. I will do everything in my power to make sure she never gets between us again. God Becca I know it was only two days but I've never felt so... Hollow" he chokes out the final word and my heart breaks all over again.
"You promised" he adds and I bring his head towards my neck; feeling him bury his face in my hair.
"I know I did, and I'm so sorry. I just felt like I needed some time on my own to process everything. I couldn't possibly leave you, Jordan. I don't have the strength to be on my own again" I tell him and I'm sure I feel him let out a small sob.
"I thought I'd lost you, Rebecca. And Sienna. Don't ever leave me again, please." He mumbles in my neck and his hot breath makes me sigh.
"Never. You're stuck with me" I stroke his hair for a moment before he pulls away and gives me a quick kiss.
"Come on, let's get back to our daughter, and then home?" He ends his sentence like a question and I nod with a grin.
"Home. It sounds perfect" I give him one more kiss before he wheels me back in to Sienna's room. Our daughter's room.