Messed Up Life

On the Streets

Second update for this week! If I have time, maybe seven updates. Anyway, I tried my best with the errors and stuff. I'm terrible at English. Probably flunked my exam.
Btw, I deleted Arrow cos I decided to focus on my three existing books. One is on hold, but I plan to finish it this year.
I'm probably getting really boring....
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A million thoughts,
In my head.
Should I let my heart
Keep listenin'.
Cuz up till now,
I've walked the line.
Nothin' lost,
But something missin'.

I rubbed my eyes. The room blurred into focus.

I can't
Decide
What's wrong
What's right

Which way
Should I go....

"Urgh!" I groaned as the sunlight hit my eyes. The bright shape of the sun blared in my face. I immediately slammed my hands over my eyes.

If only I knew what my
Heart was
Telling me
Tell me what I'm feelin'
Is this just a dream
Uh oh
Yeah
If only I could read the
Signs in
Front of me
I could find a way to
Who I'm meant to be
Uh oh
If only
Yeah

The chorus rang through the air. Echoing off the walls of my penthouse-room. My phone vibrated non-stop on my bedside table, my ringtone going off as loud as possible. I moaned and turned over, trying to bury my head under the pillow.

Am I
Crazy
Maybe
We could
Happen
Yeah

Will you
Still be
With me
When the magic's
All run out

I gave up and turned over, opening my eyes. The song literally voiced my thoughts.

If only I knew what my
Heart was
Telling me
Tell me what I'm feelin'
Is this just a dream
Uh oh
Yeah
If only I could read the
Signs in
Front of me
I could find a way to
Who I'm meant to be
Uh oh
If only
Yeah

If only
Yeah

If only
Yeah

If only..

I sighed as Dove Cameron's voice sounded the last notes.

If only

I sat up in bed, stretching my arms out. I grabbed my phone. Apparently Kelly was calling me.

"Hello?" I asked.

"Hi Vivi! I was wondering if you wanted to come over to my house to hang out and get ready today." Kelly chirped.

I groaned inwardly. I had promised Amelia that I would go to her house. I didn't know what to do.
"Erm... I sort of already promised Amelia." I replied sheepishly.

"Oh. Never mind then." Kelly's voice fell and I felt terrible.

"Wait!" I stopped.

"Yes?" Kelly asked hopefully.

"Would it help if I go to neither of your houses and just get ready at home?" I questioned.

"Yeah..." Kelly mumbled.

"Then that's what I'll do. " I finally decided.

I hung up after a quick goodbye. Well, a day to myself. It's been days. I sighed and rubbed my eyes. Urgh, it's only 9am. I have loads of time. I trudged to the bathroom. 
~~~~~~TIME SKIP~~~~~~
After freshening up, I searched my wardrobe for something to wear. I picked out a sparkly pink jacket, a white thin-strapped blouse and a pair of skinny jeans. I slipped my clothes on. Tying my hair into a messy updo, I realize that I didn't have any makeup! "Urgh!" I groaned for, like, the hundredth time that day. I grabbed a white bag and stepped into a pair of sandals. I put the songbird bracelet on my wrist and stepped into the car.

I stepped out at the mall. It was incredibly crowded. People bustled here and there, trying to find their desired items. I stared longingly at Zara and Mango, but told myself to snap out of it. I was only here to get makeup.

I stopped by Sephora and chose the big set of makeup. I placed it on the counter.
"Fifty dollars please." the woman at the cashier said. I fumble with my wallet and passed a cash note to her.

Soon, I walked out of the mall, carrying millions of bags. Who knew clothes could weigh so much? I knew I wouldn't have been able to contain myself. I ended up stopping by ten shops and buying many clothes. I had literally nothing in my wardrobe!

My stomach grumbled, pulling me back to the present. I threw the bags into the boot of the car and drove off.

The nearest place was right next to a bar full of drunken men. I stepped carefully into the cafe after walking for a while, avoiding the bar. I ordered a salad and some other stuff. It was delicious! I thanked the person at the counter and walked off. I checked my watch. 2pm. If better get home. Still gotta go to DeLaLindleFawkes. I took a shortcut down the alleyway.

"Hey sweetheart! Come on! We can have some fun!" A drunken man was standing in front of me. Uh oh. I stepped back,"It's ok." I turned hurriedly, but felt someone grab me. "Not so fast sweety." Another man gripped me fast  and hard. I gasped, this could not be happening. A group of drunken men approached me from all around. They licked their lips and walked closer. I trembled. No, I will not let these men rape me. I will not let these men rape me.

"Ah!" My scream tore through the air. A man ripped off my jacket and started on my blouse. I shrieked but no one could here me. Tear ran down my face. Judo was no use if I couldn't move my arms. I struggled to get out. The man gripped the hem of my shirt and slipped it over my head. Luckily, I was wearing a singlet underneath. I screamed and shouted as the men tugged my shirt off. I screamed till I was hoarse, but no one came.
~~~~~TIME SKIP~~~~~
They got their way. They left me on the streets, tired out and sobbing. It was evening now and I felt really, really, sore. I turned over and cried some more. Why me?! Why always me?! Why can't people just leave me alone for once!? I gathered my clothes and shoved them on, pulling my hair together again. I wiped the tears off my face. I grabbed my hand bag and continued down the alleyway.

Fortunately, no one attacked me or assaulted me this time. I reached the car in peace.

When I reached DeLaLindleFawkes, Mdm Tuppence saw the hickeys on my neck and the blossoming bruises on my arms, she guessed what happened. However, she was kind enough to not ask anything. Though she did look sympathetic. She handed me a white cover-bag thingy and dismissed me.

I got to my house and took out the makeup. I sorted out my clothes and hung them in the wardrobe in order of type. I took out my dress. Wow.