You Don't Understand

Chapter 21

Chapter Twenty-One

              

I just got him back, and now he has to leave again, even longer than before. A good four months away from me. Million of miles will lay between us. The only communication is dependent on technology.

The boys went ahead into the airport to let Niall and I to say our good bye in the car. Four months. That's more than 120 days.

I stared at Niall, my vision blurry because of the amount of moisture my eyes produced. Don't cry. Please don't cry.

I don't think I'm getting so emotional for the fact that he's leaving for a while, but because there's always a possibility that he might find someone better than me. Someone beautiful. Someone who makes him happy. Someone he loves more. Someone who gives him more than I ever could. So I guess, my wet eyes are full of water because this might be the last time I can call him mine.

I looked at the blue haired boy in front of me. His usual grinning face was replaced with sadness. I'm going to miss this. Miss him. Miss us. Everything we've been through.

I hugged Niall, burying my face into his chest.

" Don't forget about me, " my muffled voice spoke.

He pulled us apart. Oh, goodie, he can't wait to get rid of me. Yet, he only put his finger under my chin to make me look him right in the eye.

"How can I forget about you? You mean the world to me to just forget about. I can guarantee that with everything going on when I'm gone, I'll think about you the very moment I wake up until the very second I fall back asleep. "

I smiled sadly as I pulled him closer to me. " I love you Niall Horan."

I kissed him hard and long. Trying to show him how much I'll miss him with my actions. Sooner or later, I pulled away from him.

" Minty." I breathed. It earned me a deep chuckle from Niall and that got me to share a small smile. "You better get going before they leave you."

"I love you Jessa. Don't you ever forget that."

He kissed me again. Full of longing and desperation. Then, Niall opened the door and slid out.

That was the last time I would see him in four months.

****

Megan stayed at my place a lot more these past few weeks. We laid lifelessly on my bed, sulking over our boyfriends. The thing that made us happy are gone in a wink of an eye. I think Megan and I are going to do a lot of bonding moping time for the next few months.

We were the only ones in my house, which made it worse because we had even more time to ourselves. Somehow, I rolled of the bed and said,  "I refuse to sulk around for four months. That's just going to prove we have no life. We can't be like this while our the guys are going to be travelling around the world, singing to fans and eating exotic foods."