All In My Head

Overview/Chapter 1

A/N: I wrote this ages ago and it is so cringey. I think the rest of it is explanatory when you read it. If you can bear with that, keep reading!

My name is Amelia Loren. Life seemed perfect, with my two best friends, Melody Lewis and Ariana Golding. We always stuck together in sun and in shade, cared for each other and never kept secrets in our group. Especially Melody. She was the one who comforted me a lot when my mum and dad got divorced; ever since that, we've been really close. We were the perfect group of best friends.

That was until the new guy; Ethan Tyler joined our class in year 8. Now, all that best friends' baloney seems like a dream! I really wish it would be the way it was. But why is he so perfect? Just because his blonde hair waves perfectly and his eyes are like twinkling stars, doesn't mean he is at all attractive! Ever since Melody saw him, she's forgotten about us. He is like the thorn in our friendship – but a sweet smelling one.

I am a really quiet person so telling my friend about my super secret crush would be SO hard. Think about it, if I told Melody then I would be considered delirious. It is definitely better to keep that kind of secret a secret, even if it is your best friend. I can't even think of her as a friend anymore. Before, she used to understand what I'm trying to say or what I feel without saying anything. Now, she doesn't understand what I'm feeling when my cheeks flush into a bright red blush every time I walk past Ethan. I mean, that should shout my feelings right out to her! It's like she doesn't understand me anymore.

Every morning to afternoon I cringe myself to death while I have to try to hook Melody up with Ethan for a chance for them to flirt. Speaking of chances, Melody has no chance with him anyway-they don't even suit. Plus worst thing is that he hardly even notices me – apart from the fact that he sits next to me in Geography. SSSQQQQQQUUUUEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!

Both I and Ariana have to sit there listening to Melody preaching about her 'moments' and dreams about Ethan. I would have stood up to her and told her about all the jokes we laughed together at and every time our eyes met and we smiled. But our friendship actually means something to me so I don't say anything. I mean, he is WAY out of her league. There was this one time where she dreamt about her wedding with Ethan and they exchanged HARIBO rings. Now that's delirious!

It seemed like when bad luck turned the corner towards me, it hit me hard because things weren't going well at home either. My baby brother Matt has been in hospital for the last three weeks, so my mum is really stressed. Most of the time she vents out her anger on me by shouting...a lot. But I stay quiet because I can understand what she is going through. Mum bottles up all her stress and eventually blurts it out. Will I do that too? I really don't want to divulge everything out because I don't want to betray Melody. I could never do that considering all that we've been through together. I don't think that I could ever be that sort of person. I'd never even thought of the fact that Melody could ever do that to me. I don't want our friendship to end so at the end of the day, it is always better to stay quiet.