All Hope Lost

Chapter 12

*lillys pov*
I woke up and now that I've relaxed a bit I wasn't mad. He was just hanging out with a friend and didn't want me to feel jealous, in a way he was actually thinking of my feelings.
I looked over to a sleepy cameron and kissed his nose. He didn't wake up.
I got on my phone and nate texted me.
N- Wanna hang out?
L- yeah in a few hours?
N- okay:)
I stayed on my phone for a little bit until cam woke up.
"Morning" I say.
"Wait what time is it?" He asks
"11:30" I say
"Shit I have a Photoshoot at 12" he says hurrying out of bed. Well I guess he was leaving again but that didn't matter I was getting used to it.
He left and I got ready for the day.
I finished tying up my hair and left.
I goto Nates house and walked in.
"Nate?" I yell, he was probably upstairs. I walk up and nate was in the bathroom, shirtless doing his hair.
I know I'm married but damn his tattoos.
"Hey" he laughs as he finishes his hair and throws on a shirt. (Sadly)
*nates pov*
"Nate?" I heard lilly yell coming up the stairs.
I was in the bathroom doing my hair and she walked in. I could feel her eyes on me since I was shirtless which made me smirk, I mean we dated so I'll always have a soft spot for her.
"Hey" I laugh and throw on a shirt.
We walk to my room and I pull out my computer.
"Keeping up with the kardashians?" She asks and I laugh.
"Go ahead" I agree and she types it in.
I secretly actually liked KUWTK.
We've been watching netflix practically all day but all I could think about was what I saw yesterday. I felt so guilty for not telling her, but I just couldn't do that to her.
"What's wrong?" She asks me pausing the show.
"It's nothing" I smile.
"Something's bugging you" she says giving me a confused look. She looked adorable when she did that face.
And now I couldn't help myself..
"You're right" I say and kiss her.
She kissed back for a split second before pushing me away.
"Nate I'm sorry" she says
"Lilly I'm sorry I just- you don't deserve how cameron is treating you" I say
"He's going to be so mad at me" she says worriedly.
"No he won't lilly." I say
"Yes he will" she says stressing even more
"Lilly I saw him kiss railey" I blurted out and instantly regretted it.
She just looked at me, for a few seconds before a tear rolled down her face.
"I- I should go, I'm going to call sam or something I just need to stay somewhere tonight I gotta go" she says quickly getting up and leaving. What did I just do..
*lillys pov*
I feel like my heart has been ripped out, if it was just a kiss I wouldn't be so upset. But cameron lied to me, kissed her, then didn't tell me.
L- sam?
S- yeah lilly? Are you okay? What's wrong?!
L- pick me up I'm at Nates
S- I'll be there any second.
"Okay I don't give a hell how awkward this may be but I'm not letting you stand out in the dark alone" nate says coming out putting a jacket around me.
"Thank you" I say wiping my tears.
After a few minuets sam pulls up and Gets out.
He pulls me into a hug. Even though he didn't know what was wrong.
"Thanks for taking care of her man" sam says to nate and we go to his car and I explain everything that happened.
"We're gunna go get you some clothes and that stuff and your gunna stay with me tonight" he says
I didn't know wether cameron was home or not which scared me. We got to my house and luckily cameron wasn't there, probably out making babies with railey?
I go inside and sam follows closely behind me. I grab a backpack and start shoving some extra clothes in it.
"Lilly?" I hear cameron yell downstairs as the door shuts.
"I'll be back" sam says storming down.
"No sam!" I say following quickly behind him with my bag.
"Oh hey guys" cameron says with a smile but it quickly faded when he saw how mad sam was.
"Don't f*cking talk to my sister" sam says (I censored it bc I'm a child of God 😂)
"Lilly what's wrong?" Cameron asks noticing I was crying and it took everything in me not to run into his arms and him make me feel all better.
"Did I not just tell you to not talk to her?!" Sam says pulling me out the door.
"Where are you going?!" Cameron says
"Screw yourself cameron" sam says shutting my door and driving off.
"Don't worry baby sis, I'll take care of you" sam says which broke my heart.
We got back to his house.
"You stay as long as you want, your room is exactly as you left it" sam says
"Sam it's only for tonight, me and cameron will eventually work this out" I say
"I don't want you guys to" he frowns.
"Just because cameron kissed someone else doesn't mean he likes them, I mean.... Nate kissed me tonight, and I kissed back.." I say and his eyes widened.
"Wait seriously?" He asks
"yeah.." I say
"Nate still likes you? Is that why he's still single?" He asks
"No! I think it was just a spur of the moment type thing" I explain.
"O-okay, well I want you to get to sleep" he says.
"Thanks sam" I say hugging him and head up to my room.
*sams pov*
S- you kissed lilly??
N- yeah...
S- was it a oh I feel bad for you kiss or a oh I've been holding in my feelings for you kiss?
N- it was more of an I forgot that I have feelings for you kiss...
S- you still like lilly?..
N- I thought I was over her! I really did! Until all of this happened.. I'm so confused..
S- you do realize she wants to work things out with cameron
N- yea..