Sweet Surrender (Book 2)

Uncertainty

  "If the moon and stars should fall
They'd be easy to replace
I would lift you up to heaven
And you would take their place"

--I Saw Red - Warrant  

Stacey

Everything is still sinking in. It's been two weeks since I was discharged from the hospital. The baby is very much stable and healthy, and so am I. I still cant believe how easily Tyler accepted everything. I went from too scared to super overwhelmed with how he treats me. Fresh fruits in my door step everyday, fetching me to and from work. I'm getting all these special treatment from him. And yeah, I feel giddy about it.

We haven't really talked about us yet. He never mentioned about us getting back together, or is this just for the baby. My heart clenches when I think about it. Of course, what he told me at the hospital surely says it all, but I have to like sit this down with him and have that talk for me to be 100% sure that were back together. I cant help but think that all these extra sweetness are just because of the baby.

"Hey, what's wrong?" He taps my knees on our way to work. He picks me up an hour earlier so we can have breakfast together. "You feeling okay?" He squeezes my knee and I just nod at him.

"Yeah. Just a bit tired." I sigh.

"You think you should call in sick today?" He asks. Concern etched on his beautiful face.

"Nah. Just these crazy hormones. All these swelling, heartburn and leg cramps are a bit too much to handle." He chuckles. he's been experiencing all these mood swings that I have. 

"When's your next appointment?" He glances at the rear view mirror and turns to park the car just outside my office building.

"Next week. Why?" She clutches her pouch and turns to face me.

"Well, are you ready for an ultrasound?" He smiles at me. His eyebrows dancing. Is he excited? I cant help but smile back at him.

"Well, someone's pretty excited." I lean my head on the chair to carefully study him.  All these handsomeness is way too much to be legal.

"Of course I'm excited. I wanna know if its a boy or a girl. Can we have the appointment moved this week?" He chuckles.

"Oh my God! You're ridiculously cute Tyler. But no, we have to wait. Okay?" I laugh as I open the door.

"Okay then. Come here..." He pulls me close against his car when he notices my reaction again the moment he steps beside me. "You're not looking okay to me. Can you tell me whats going through in here?" He leans forward to kiss my temple. 

"I'm worried..." I whisper against his chest. I can stay here forever. He smells so good. 

"Worried about what?" He asks and tries to pull away but I tighten my grip on him. "Hey, look at me...What are you so worried about?" He lifts my chin with his fingers.

"About this... Us..." 

"Why?" He pulls me back closer to his embrace. 

"I don't know. It's like I fear that you'll disappear again as fast as you cam back to my life." My voice trembles. I clear my throat to ease up my nerves.

"You know that's not happening right. I mean, I'm too attached to you Stacey. I tried for years to forget about us, but still I came back running. Then I lost you again, thanks to me. But still the moment I laid my eyes on you..." His voice drifts off when I put my finger against his lips to silence him. No need for words. I can feel him. His love, his care. All of it. Its radiating all over the place. Too good to be true.

"Can you stop touching me like that if you don't want me to kiss you right here in your parking lot?" His eyes darken. We haven't done anything for these past two weeks other than talk and spend time with each other. I know he's very careful not to scare me away.

"Well, can you stop holding me like this if you don't want me to touch you like that?" I tease him. He just shakes his head and releases his hold of me. "Come on. We don't want my boss to think that I'm flirting with a client here." He laughs and places his hand on my back as we walk to the building.

"I know he wouldn't mind though." He shakes his head. Jason's extra attention towards Tyler is pretty obvious. All those touchy-feely. I really don't mind. I know Tyler's not affected at all. He just laughs about it.

"That man is pretty hooked on you Tyler." I chuckle when he opens the door for me.

"Well, I don't care. You definitely go me hooked so deep I can't even make myself live another day without you. So don't you dare think that I'm doing this just for the baby." I stop in my tracks and look at him."Don't act like you don't know what I'm saying Stacey.  I know what's going on in that beautiful mind of yours. Stop it. Got me?" Seriously? Now I really believe that he cab read my mind.

"Got it." I nod my head and he pulls me for another tight embrace before I walk in to my office. "Don't you wanna come in and say hi to Jason?" I smile playfully at him. He just smirks and waves his hand as he turns for the exit.

I have this stupid smile plastered on my face the moment I walk in the office. Jason studies me through the rim of his glasses when I sit behind my desk.

"Love struck much?" He says as he heads for the coffee maker. "Tea?" I nod at him.

"Thanks." I smile again when he hands me my cup. "Why are you looking at me like that?" I chuckle when he still eyes me with his cup on his lips.

"Nothing. You look extra happy today. Something happened? Are we warming up the bed already?" His eyebrows dance playfully.

"Jason!" I put my cup down and boot my laptop. I can feel my face heat up. I know, I'm blushing.

"What's with that color-changing face? This is pure mature talk." I widen my eyes when he just keeps on smiling at me. "Okay. No more mature talk for Jason and Stacey. I can see heart shaped pupils right now though." He laughs and head back to his desk.

"Ha! You wish." I grin as I remember all those sweetness overload at the parking lot just a couple minutes ago.

"So, you finally moving in to that super beautiful, richly decorated penthouse?" He voices up again after awhile of silence.

"What? No!" I shake my head violently as I try to focus on my calendar for today.

"Why not? I mean, the place is huge. It would be a very nice place to start a family." 

"No moving in, no warming up of beds. And remember that place? It looks like a rich kid's bachelor pad! I cant possibly let my kid run around in that huge house. God knows how many women he has brought in there. He mentioned he got the place renovated a couple of years back when he was still starting up at Singapore. His parents used to live there." 

"Who cares about those women? You are the woman in his life now. That's important." He walks towards my desk with a stack of folders in his hands.

"How do you know that I'm the only woman in his life now? God knows if he has a girlfriend back in Singapore, or a casual hook-up here in Canada." I shake my head and open the folders one at a time and arrange it by dates.

"Well, can't you feel it? I mean. You will know if he's treating you extra special you know."

"He is. I'm super pampered. Spoiled to death. But that doesn't mean that its one of your happy-ever-after. God! That man is known for his way with women. I have a sick feeling that once the baby is out, were back to the normal Stacey-Tyler relationship again." 

"Which is?" His eyebrows shoot up when I look at him.

"Which is... I don't know. We are pretty good together, but he always ruins it. I can't fully trust him just yet Jay. It's too soon to have my heart broken again."

Jason just shakes his head. I know. I'm equally confused with my feelings for him right now. I just pray that he knows what he's up to. All these changes in our lives are pretty scary.