Blocks
CHAPTER 1
I don’t know why it matters to other people if someone is gay. It’s not their business. I don’t go around wondering if they’re straight. I just don’t care, so why should they care about me?
I tore off the scrawl I was writing from the pad. It was no use. Writing shit down isn’t helping me in anyway, like the councillor said it would. He lied to me. Everyone lied to me. I put my face into my hands. I am so sick and tired of this. I can’t go through a day without being teased about my orientation. Why did this happen? It was mine and his secret. My best friend, no more.
1 Month earlier:
“James, I have something to tell you,” I whispered quietly.
“You can tell me anything,” James grasped my hand and gave me that kind grin that could make even the hardest soldier give over all their secrets. I leaned back into the sofa and took a deep breath. Why was this even a big deal? Why do people even care that.......
“I’m gay,” I said, shaking. The grip on my hand loosened slightly. Shit.
“Well….. That’s,” James looked unsure of what to say.
“I know, terrible,” I was fighting back tears. If James didn't except me - then no one would.
“No that’s not true, I’ll support you no matter what, you’re my best friend,” James said as he pulled me into a hug. I let the tears fall onto his shoulder as he rubbed my back. Thank god, it was going to be OK.
After that, James drove me home. I got inside and Mum had a huge fucking bullshit rant about how I shouldn’t be out late with James.
“Why not?” I asked, “he’s my best friend.”
“Sex, that’s why,” Mum said.
“WHAT! Fuck you mum!” I screamed and ran upstairs to my room, slamming my door behind me. The very thought of sex with a boy disgusts me, that my mum thinks I’m sleeping with James is offensive. I lay down on my bed and cried myself to sleep. Oh yeah, THAT happens a lot.
The next day was Saturday, I logged into ‘Talkspace’ which is a chatsite/blog that a couple of my friends from school are on. I was hoping James would be online so I could thank him for being so understanding, but he wasn’t. Only my friend Leah, (from school) was online. Leah and I weren't exactly close - but she was a friend. I didn't have many of those unfortunately.
GraphicLeah: Hey Julz! What’s up?
The Volktina: oh hi Leah, you know same shit different day.
GraphicLeah: What’s that supposed to mean? :/
The Volktina: That I feel like shit.
GraphicLeah: Awwwww why? :(
The Volktina: Nah, you won’t understand.
GraphicLeah: Really?
The Volktina: yeah, don’t worry ‘bout it ay?
GraphicLeah: Kk but I’m always here 4 u.
The Volktina: yep k
GraphicLeah: omg guess who was on TV?
The Volktina: ummmm, the prime minister?
GraphicLeah: nah fuck that, your favourite girls?
The Volktina: tatu?
GraphicLeah: yeah man!
The Volktina: No way!
GraphicLeah: yeah! They were talking about gays and lesbians in music and it’s like: tatu kissing.
The Volktina: sick
GraphicLeah: Ikr? Hey what r u doing tonight?
The Volktina: nothing, homework I guess.
GraphicLeah: sweet! Wanna come over and watch Anna’s old tatu video? Bring ur h/work!
The Volktina: sure y not! It’s gud 2 get out of the house xD I’ll cya l8er. I’ll try convince my parents hehe
GraphicLeah: Good luck Julz! J
The Volktina: I’m gonna need it.
-The Volktina logged out.
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Blocks
Teen FictionThis is the story of a teenaged girl named Julia. She is just a normal teenager but she has a slight difference- she is gay. Warning: Sex scenes, violence and language.
