Tamar Braxton's Daughter *Not Edited*

Chapter 21

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Song: Red by Daniel Merriweather

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Life these past few months has been difficult.

I can't do anything without breaking down in tears and I'm constantly in pain. I hate myself right now but I'm trying to stay strong for my family.

I pray a lot now and I'm always apologizing to Tamar because I know I'm causing her so much pain.

In the hospital I overheard her saying how her health had gotten worse and I can't help but blame myself. I also overhead that Sera is still alive but Kat is paralyzed.

I flatlined multiple times, I am so grateful for the Lord. He saved me and gave me another chance at life.

My injuries were and still are terrible. I had a concussion along with having some internal bleeding. I had at least 3 broken ribs with a lot of bruising. My fingers on my left hand were broken and are currently still healing.

For two months I couldn't feel my back, which is heavily scarred from the nails and the whipping, the doctors believed that I would be paralyzed. The strangulation towards my neck had messed up my vocal cords which just meant that I wasn't allowed to speak for months.

Sadly the list is endless but nonetheless I made it out.

I'm alive and I'm free.
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"Hey Ti." I struggle to smile simply because I'm in pain.

"Hi mummy." I croak.

"How you feeling?" Tamar slightly strokes my hair.

"Better than yesterday. Dancing with the stars?" I move myself closer to her.

"It went beautifully, I dedicated it to you." I place my right hand on her arm and softly stroke it.

We lay there in silence as we cuddle up in my bed. I them decide to ask the question that I've been dreading.

"Where's my fath-- I mean Tyson?" My voice sounds so hoarse.

I feel Tamar's body tense up and I immediately stop stroking her arm.

"Tiana..." I slightly lift my head to look at her. "Tyson is dead." She says it expressionless.'

Tyson is dead. My father is dead.

I'm supposed to be happy or somewhat relieved but I'm not.

The tears slowly start pouring down my face as I silently mourn.

I mourn for the loss of my father who was once a great man. I mourn for the loss of my brother Brad who was killed by our father and lastly I mourn for the last 9 years spent with him. All the pain and anguish that we had to endure.

Will I ever find peace? Will my siblings be ok?

These are all the questions that may never be answered.

I soon drift off. I must've been asleep for a couple of hours since Tamar isn't here anymore but Sera, Kat and Mitchell are.

I try my hardest to smile but it's too much.

"Hey." I croak.

"Hey Tia." Mitchell says while giving me a warm smile. He comes close and gives me a kiss on the head before stepping away.

Sera gives me a small smile. Kat looks up and I notice her wheelchair.

"Jada got arrested in case you're wondering." I sigh in relief as Kat says this.

"Do the others know... Th-that his dead?" I silently ask.

"Yeah and they don't give a shit. The only one who cared was the girlfriend whose expecting his child but she wants nothing to do with us. She also has Tyson's ashes." Kat says once again and I frown.

We all continue to make small talk until Mitchell decides to take them home with him. They each send me their love along with a kiss on the forehead.

For over 3 months I have been weak. Now it's time for me to be a Braxton.

I am Tiana Disney Braxton.
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I take a deep breath before slowly rolling myself off my bed.

I slowly get up before hobbling over to my bathroom. I undress myself ahead of staring at myself in the mirror. 

I look away in disgust then I step into the shower. I let the water fall on me while I stand there. I usually have my mum wash me since I need the help but not today.

It's time to get back to normal and move on. I turn my body so that I'm able to see my back through the mirror.

I haven't physically seen my back, I've only felt it that's how I knew it was scarred.

I start retching until the acidic liquid forces it way out of my mouth. I puke and I puke until I start dry heaving.

After a while, I stop dry heaving I step away from the puke and allow the water to wash it away. Once it's gone I step back into the water and grab a loofah.

I squeeze some shower gel onto it before gently starting to rub it onto myself.

After almost an hour of washing my body I grab some shampoo and start rubbing it into my hair.

A minute later my fingers start to pain so I stop. I place my head under the shower and let the water wash it away.
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The time is 6:47pm. I get changed into a cotton vest with no bra on before going ahead and stepping into some black leggings.

I grab a oversized grey sweater and slowly pull it over my body. I sigh happily then I turn towards my vanity.

I brush my hair once before chucking it on my bed. I walk out my room feeling proud of myself.

One small step for Tiana, one giant leap for Braxton. Lol, I'm crazy.

Once I get down the stairs I spot my mum and her sisters in the kitchen.

My throat still hurts and my voice is still hoarse but I'm a Braxton.

"Mother." They all look at me in shock. "Tiana Disney Braxton is HERE!" My voice cracks but eh, I don't care.

They all rush over to me and carefully squeeze me into a hug.