Songs For Women (BWWM)

HalfCrazy.. (16)

Song: Halfcrazy by Musiq Soulchild.

Dedicated to Billiejayy for the songgestion.

Enjoy!!

4 months later...

"Tell him the truth." Cali pleaded for the 147th time this summer.

I used my shoulder to hold my phone as I fished my suitcase off of the conveyor belt.

The airport had been insanely difficult to maneuver but I was glad to be home. It was a really long, much needed break from the madness.

"Have you talked to him at all this summer?" Cali said in my ear, bringing my thoughts to a screeching halt.
"Cal, you know I haven't"
"Whyyyy." She whined in my ear. "You're still in love with him. You should tell him.
"Why are we even talking about this? Didn't you and Chase agree to stay out of this?" I say making my way out of the airport doors.
"No. Chase and I agreed to not discuss it with each otherrr. I don't talk to him about you and he doesn't talk to me about Jorden."
"So Chase hasn't mentioned Jorden to you at all?" I ask, slightly intrigued.
"Why does it matter to you?" Cali asks smartly.
"It doesn't"
"Uh huh. Your eyebrows crinkle when you lie." I hear her say clearly. I turn around and see Cali with a huge grin on her face coming towards me. She jumps up on me, wrapping her legs around my torso and hugging me tightly causing everyone entering and exiting the airport to give us looks.
"I missed you too, Cali" I say with a laugh as she releases me. She helps me grab some bags as we load her car up.

"Thanks for picking me up from the airport." I say once we get rolling.
"Of course, now back to the matter at hand."
"Really? Right back to talking about Jorden. No how was your summer, No what'd you do in Miami? Jorden Jorden Jorden."
"Because we've talked about your summer. All about Miami, all about the work you were doing and the amazing opportunity you got but now you're back to your life here and it's time to face the one thing you HAVEN'T talked about. It's back to reality for you darling. No more running."
"What do you want me to say Cali? That I still love him. That I still think about him almost everyday. Cause I do. We both know that."
"Why doesn't he know that. What are you so afraid of? He has called you, e-mailed you, hell, he wrote you letters. FUCKING LETTERS. What type of Romeo and Juliet shit is that?"

I couldn't help but laugh, but she had a point. She knew that I didn't even open the letters. But she didn't know that I still carried them with me, everywhere, faithfully.

"I know." I just say quietly. I didn't really have a response. I guess I was scared. When I left, I told him we should just be friends, to give up having anything more, but it turns out that I was wrong. I never got over him and I shouldn't have let him go. The truth is, I still love him.

Cali looked over at me and saw the look on my face. "Wanna get FroYo?" She said in a softer tone. I nodded as I slipped my hand into my purse and ran my fingers across the stack of envelopes.

We stopped to get Frozen Yogurt before she took me home. They repaved the asphalt in the parking lot. And the lobby area had a fresh coat of paint along with a few other minor changes. Everything felt.... new.
I finally made it inside the door of my apartment to find everything in tact. I ended up subleasing for the months I was gone but the entire place was spotless. Once again giving off that feeling of change and newness.
The only thing that wasn't different was the crooked letter E outside of my neighbor's door. I laugh to myself and think back to two years ago when I first met Chase, Branden and Jorden. So much has changed since then.

Change seems to be the theme of the day. The movers are bringing my things from storage first thing in the morning so I sit in the middle of the empty living room floor with my bag. I dump out the envelopes and open each one, ordering them by date and then I begin to read the first one.