Being Josh Ramsay's Daughter

Figure It Out

*Time Lapse (like a week later) to the day that Josh gets out of the hospital*

We parked outside of the hospital. I was excited to have dad home, but I also sort of dreaded having to tell him my news. I looked at the entrance and imagined how the conversation would go.

Megan put her hand on my shoulder.

"You know you have to tell him kiddo. I know it won't be easy but you know you have to." She said, softly.

I didn't even have to look at her to know that she was frowning sympathetically.

"I know. I'm just thinking of how to word it." I said, unbuckling my seat belt and jumping out of the car.

We walked to the entrance and I felt myself slowing a little with every step.

We were sitting in the waiting room and I saw the nurses walking him down the hall toward us. I stood up and ran to him, hugging him.

I hadn't realized it but I was crying. I'm not sure what the reason for my tears was, but it was a relief to be in his presence again. And for him to be standing and walking on his own.

I looked back and Megan gave me a look that said "tell him". I nodded at her and took a deep breath.

"Daddy, I need to tell you something."

"What is it Cadi?" He looked concerned.

I wanted to tell him, I wanted him to know. But I didn't want him to get bad news the first day he was back from the hospital.

I didn't know how to say it. I didn't know what to say. I needed to figure it out. And it had to be quick because dad was worried and confused. The doctors told me to try not to stress him out too much for a few days in order to keep him feeling okay.

I stopped all my other thoughts and the single thought I had was "figure it out."