a glimpse into this brain of mine

Alone

Quietly and alone
I sit in pain
The pain of my past
The terror of my future
Hiding my tears
I pretend to be ok
Hiding my scars
I pretend those days didn't happen
Hiding my body
I pretend to love it
Growing up is taking a toll
On the happy child of my youth
No longer carefree
Now I am burdened with the pain of reality
A chalked up childhood
One full
For the most part
With love
But also with lies
Wars haven't stopped
As I was convinced they were
Wars and always guns and death, my friends
Often fought in one's own head
Quietly and alone
I cry for help
With our making a sound
Hoping someone will hear this yell for help of silent solitude