Already Broken (Magcon And 5sos Fanfic) {discontinued}

Chapter 4

*Chris's POV*

Once we got inside we all took a shower cause to be honest we smell like the boys' armpits. But that took forever since I shared a bathroom with 4 boys. Thank God we have 2 bathroom but Luke takes forever since he has to have his signature quiff.

So we decided that I take a shower first then Calum then Ashton then Michael since Luke takes one bathroom all to himself.

I got into the bathroom and took a shower. It took me 5 minutes cause I was hungry and smelled food. So I put a towel around my body. But I made the mistake of looking in the mirror. What I saw was somebody broken, worthless, ugly, somebody that deserved to die and somebody that nobody loves. I broke down crying and I couldn't stop. All I could think of was that nobody cares, nobody loves me, that I'm worthless, that I'm ugly, that I should die. I'm so stupid. I'm stupid cause I'm still on this earth, that I'm still alive. I kept on crying and crying to the point where I could barely breath.

I guess Calum heard my thoughts cause the bathroom door flew open with all the boys with a worried expression. Once they saw me their face softened. Ashton crouched down to the floor to where I was.

"Chris, why are you crying?" Ashton asked concerned. All I could do was shake my head cause I couldn't really talk since I was still crying.

"Calum can you please talk to Chris?" Michael suggested. Calum then really focused on me so we can talk.

Okay what's wrong Pengi? We're all worried about you okay? Calum asked in a serious tone.

I don't know okay Calum. I think it's my demons that are saying these thing. I answered back with no emotion.

I heard what you were thinking. Calum said sadly. He looked like he was about to cry.

Cal please don't cry. Please don't. I hate to see you sad or crying. It just breaks me. I begged Calum crying even harder.

By now all the boys were on the floor trying to cofort me. Do you want me to tell them? Calum questioned. All I could do was nod. Calum was explaining what had happened when I was in the bathroom and about the conversation. When Calum first started they boys looked like they were going to cry again.

When I saw that all I could think about was how I was such a horrible person. I'm just a burden. If I wasn't alive they wouldn't have this problem. If I died that one day the boys would have the perfect life living out their dream. They wouldn't have this pathetic sister. They wouldn't have this problem. They wouldn't have a ugly, worthless piece of shit as a sister. They would have a great brother or sister instead of me.

Luckily Calum was too busy explaining that he couldn't read my mind. After he was done explaining I stopped crying and the boys had a few tears running down their face. That made me feel extremely bad since I caused those. They all looked at me to see if I was okay. I just nodded since my voice might be a little hoarse.

We all got up off the floor and I went to my room to get dress in my pajamas. My pajamas were sweatpants and a sweatshirt. I came downstairs to find Calum fresh out of the shower dressed and cooking with Michael. I went into the kitchen to see what they were cooking and if they needed help.

"Do you guys need any help?" I asked the boys. They just nodded. We were making pizza (typical) and we got to make our own pizza. We had all of the ingredients and toppings. So we were making the pizza dough and rolling it out. I felt something hit my back do I turned around and saw that Michael threw a pepperoni at me.

"Oh, it's on." I challenged. After like 5 minutes the kitchen was a mess with toppings all over the floor but don't worry we made the pizzas and put them in the oven already. But now we had to clean this mess up. Great *note the sarcasm. So we cleaned up in the kitchen just in time cause when we were throwing the last things away Luke and Ashton came in and then Mikey left to go shower.

"So what are we eaing cause I'm so hungry I might just eat a plate." Luke said with a serious expression. But seconds later we all burst out laughing.

"But seriously what are we eating?" Ashton asked this time.

"Chris drum roll please?" Calum told me. I went to Ashton's drum set and picked up the drum sticks. Then I started drum rolling while Calum said "We are having....." I stopped so Calum can have his big finish.

"PIZZA!!!!" Calum yelled. And that's when all hell broke lose. Luke started screaming out of excitement and just for the fun of it. Ashton just started jamming out to his drums while singing the pizza song. Calum was jumping all around the house. Michael came downstairs and and started acting like pikachu. And I was just sitting on the couch watching this unfold.

Then I heard a ding from the kitchen meaning the pizza was done. I got up from the couch and went into the kitchen to get the pizzas out so they won't burn.

Once I got them all out I start cutting them into slices. After I was done I went to get the mega phone.

"HEY THE PIZZAS ARE DONE!" I said into the mega phone. When I said that they came running to me and almost got knocked over. They grabbed their pizzas and headed to the couch like civil people. They can be crazy and wild in one second then calm and civil the next. We all sat on the couch and watched a movie. I forgot what it was called. Calum was at the end on my left, Luke was on my left, Micheal on my right, Ashton at the right end and I'm in the middle. I looked around and see a family, a family that I wouldn't trade for the world. I smiled and continued to watch the movie.

The movie ended and it was late at night so we all decided to go to sleep. When I went to bed I went to sleep with a smile on my face.

A/n Thank you for reading you beautiful people. Hope to make the next chapter soon. Please share with your friends.

Stay strong beautifuls you're going to be okay.

-Pengi