Already Broken (Magcon And 5sos Fanfic) {discontinued}

Chapter 14

*Ashton's POV*

As I was walking to school I passed one of my classmate. His name was Adam. He's one of the worst.

I looked down at the ground and walked faster hoping he won't notice me. "Hey bitch!" Dang it. I turned around to face him.

He was walking towards me and he looked pissed for no reason. "What you doing you piece of shit? Too poor to get on the bus? Parents don't love you enough? Well they shouldn't love you at all or even care about you." He spat. Ouch. He's so dang close to the truth but he doesn't know it.

I tried to walk away from him but he kept in following me. "Why don't you go die already you freak show. No one will notice or care. Wait no you'll be doing us a favor so we don't have to see your ugly ass face everyday." Why can't he just leave me alone.

By now we're already at school and he still didn't leave me alone in fact his friends joined him in this twisted game of his.

"Why can't he see that no one cares?" One of his friends said who's name is Joe.

"I know right? Like his parents don't even love him probably. I mean look at his clothes." Adam commented.

With that I quickly walk to my classroom. I look at the clock as I sat down. 8:30. Okay I have 10 minutes to spare, so I grabbed my backpack and grab out my homework to see if I had anything wrong.

I got finished as the bell rang signaling that class has officially start.

"Okay class today...." My teacher Mr. Al said while walking to the white board. I zoned all the noise out and payed attention to the lesson. During the middle of the lesson I got a note passed to me. I opened it and I regret doing that.

Dear loser,

I've been wondering why you're so ugly. Like you look like a monster that everyone should be scared of. I'm also hoping that you'll die today cause that would be fucking amazing. Your so poor, look at your clothes, they're all worn out and not new. They're out of style and look like someone threw up on them. Nobody cares about you okay? Why can't you get that through your big ass head? Just asking. Why didn't you cut deep enough last night?

My breathing hitched. Nobody knows about that. I continued reading the note.

Why didn't you? It would've been great if I didn't see you here today. Hope you die soon.

Hate,
You know who.

I dropped the note. Tears were streaming down my face. God why am I so weak. Why? Why? Why? I picked up the note and crumpled it up. I hate myself. I wiped away the tears and I got that tingling feeling in my arm again.

My arm started to feel really itchy again. I raised my hand while holding my sleeve so it won't fall. The teacher turned around from the board. "Uh, yes Ashton?" He asked me while I put my hand down. "Um, may I go use the restroom?" I asked. "Uh yeah sure," he walked to his desk, "here's the hall pass." He held out the hall pass and I went under my desk quickly and grabbed my razor. I went up and grabbed the pass. I walked out the door but throwing the note first.

Once I got to the bathroom I broke down crying. Why am I still alive? This is all my fault!

I looked up to the ceiling and kept on whispering why? Over and over again. The urge was getting stronger until I couldn't take it anymore. So I grabbed the razor that was in my back pocket and started cutting away.

All of them represent something. Something that keeps running through my head non stop. Everyday. Every hour. Every minute. And every second. I finally stop but there's blood dripping down on the floor. I stood up and cleaned my arm.

Once I cleaned up my arm I bandaged it and cleaned up the blood on the floor with paper towels but flushing them down the toilet.

I walked out of the bathroom and back into class.

Nothing else really happened after that until lunch time.

*skip to lunch*

As I was walking to lunch I spotted my only friends. Chris, Luke, Calum and Mikey. I walked up to them. "Hey guy." I said happily. "Hey Ashton."

"You guys go get your lunches and I go get a table." I said. "Why don't you get lunch with us Ash?" Calum asked. "Ummm I forgot my lunch money." I faked a smile. "I'll share my lunch with you Ash." Chris offered happily. I mouthed a thank you to her.

I went to go find a table and I did, amazingly. I sat down and waited.

After 2 minutes I see the boys and Chris. But Chris had 2 trays of food. I stood up and helped her cause she looked like she was about to drop the trays. "Whoa, whoa Chrissy let me help you with that." I grabbed one of the trays and placed it on the table. "So why did you get 2 trays C?" I questioned. "Whoa whoa did I invite you to my barbecue? No? Then why are you all up in meh grill?" She joked.

"I definitely didn't get this one tray for you Ash. I'm definitely going to eat all of this food." My gosh, she's so sarcastic. "I got this one tray for you A." She said normally.

"Oh. Chris you didn't have to do that." I felt guilty. "No I wanted to and you look alot skinnier. No offense. And also you looked really hungry."

Wow it's like she can read my mind or something. Like she knows how I feel.

She shoved the tray towards me. On the tray it had my favorite foods on it. It had chips, pizza, chicken nuggets and candy.

"THANK YOU CHRIS!" I yelled while throwing my arms around her. She laughed, "You're welcome Ash."

I started pigging out and I got finished with in the next 10 minutes. "Oh my gosh Ash, slow down. You're going to choke on that chip." Micheal laughed. I slowed down and we continued our conversation.

Chris was zoning out but that happens alot so I don't worry. That was until I saw tears forming in her eyes. "Uh Chris? Chris?! Are you okay!?" By now I was shaking her to snap her out of it.

She gasped for air and start staring at me and then burst into tears. She got out of my grip and ran to the bathroom. I tried to chase after her but it was too late. I went back to that table and sat down.

She came out after 3 minutes and she was still sniffling. I got up and walked towards her. "Hey what's wrong?" I asked worried. She didn't say anything, she instead threw her arms around me. I felt like someone actually cared when she hugged me. It felt nice.

I heard the bell ring signaling for our next class. We pulled away and went back to the table. I saw that Chris barely ate anything. We threw away our food and headed our separate ways.

The rest of the day went as usual. Being made fun of, being called names, so on and so on.

*After school*

I was walking home....

To be continued.....

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-Pengi