Already Broken (Magcon And 5sos Fanfic) {discontinued}

Chapter 8

*Chris's POV*

I watch them sit down from the corner of my eyes. They had to get 2 tables and they were on the other side of the room from us. More students came in at the last few seconds.

Once the bell rang Mrs. Le came in and said that we can do whatever we want as long as we don't get to loud.

Everybody goes to their friends and talk. The boys talk and talk. My bullies are talking probably about how they're probably going to beat me up with their other friends too. They do this every damn year and it hurts really bad. Sometimes I wake up at midnight and have to walk home but since I'm graduating this year they are definitely make this one a one to remember.

I couldn't stop thinking what they might do to me. I guess I zoned out cause next thing I knew Luke was snapping his fingers in front of my face. I blinked many times before taking my ear buds out and pausing my music.

"Yeah?" I asked still blinking and now rubbing my eyes.

"I was saying how excited about summer and never being in school ever again." Michael said day dreaming again.

"Okay. Is that all guys?" I asked again.

"Oh, no, we have to talk to you when we go home together okay?" Calum answered. I start panicking a little. My hands were starting to sweat since all the boys were staring at me.

"Ummm I think I need to stay after school for something." I was playing with my sleeves on my sweater.

"Oh okay then we'll just wait until your done." Calum said.

"O-okay." I stuttered. I put my ear buds back in, started up the music again and took out my sketch book and started sketching out some things. I was listening to The Only Reason so my sketch was depressing.

I close my eyes and try to sleep
I fall apart
I'm fighting hard to breath

I wouldn't fight hard to breath. Everyone is better off without me.

Your the reason
The only reason

The only reason I'm still here is for the boys. I looked at the boys. They were smiling and laughing and over all having run with each other. I'm just here. I'm just a burden. I already and always will be.

I was still sketching when a paper ball was threw at me. I look around to see who threw it. The boys didn't notice at all. I opened the paper ball to find a message.

Dear slut, (you know who you are)
Remember about the beating. Meet us at your locker. We have a little surprise in store for you. This definitely going be a one to remember. If you don't show up we know where you live.

Hate,
You know who

P.s. Go die already you bitch your going to do us all a favor if you do.

Once I was done reading the message tears were running down my face and I was silently sobbing. The boys didn't notice until Calum came to my side and start soothing me and whispered sweet things in my ears. My vision was very blurry so I could make anything out but I knew They were laughing. I couldn't hear music. My one escape from reality. I knew my sketch had tear stains on it. But nobody seemed to notice me crying other than Calum, Luke, Mikey and my bullies. I should be glad that nobody is noticing but this really shows how people pay very little attention to me or even cared for me but what did I expect. The whole school hates me. Nobody would notice if I disappeared. I really am worthless, invisible, a disappointment, a failure, and anything else you could think of. I was all of those things.

I couldn't stop the tears. I couldn't. I got up from Calum's grip and went to the front of the room where Mrs. Le was. I put my head down so she wouldn't notice the tears.

"U-um, ca-can I-I go-o to-o the ba-bathro-room?" I manged to say through the tears.

"Sure, sweetie." she answered. I heard rummaging."Here's the hall pass." She handed me the hall pass. I nodded to say thank you and went to my desk to grab my pencil case. Luke tried to grab my arm but I shrugged him off. I ran out of the room, down the halls and into the bathroom.

Once I was in the bathroom I slide down a wall and start sobbing even harder. I reached for my pencil case and grabbed my razor out again. I started cutting and couldn't stop.

I stopped around 30-40 cuts, but I couldn't stop crying. I stood up and cleaned my arms and put bandages on my arms again. I cleaned up the blood. I slide down the wall again and started thinking. I thought of the same thing over and over again. Why did my family have to die and why wouldn't none of my other family take me in? Am I really that big of a disappointment that they didn't want any contact or relation with me? I started crying again.

I was crying for a good 5 minutes before I heard the door open. Oh no. I started panicking and crying even harder. I heard a gasp and a door shut.

"Please don't hurt me." I pleaded in a weak voice. I heard footsteps running towards me and when they were close enough I flinched. I couldn't really see so I was surprised when this person sat down next to me and start hugging.

"Oh my budda, are you okay?" I feminine voice said, her voice laced with concern. Of course I'm not, I'm sitting on the bathroom floor crying.

"U-um ye-yeah I am." I answered wiping away my tears.

"No your not. Your sitting on the bathroom floor crying. Tell me what's wrong." She asked softly.

"Sorry I don't really know you." I said sounding a little better. I finally look up. I stand up and so does she. I look at her and she has black medium length hair, dark brown eyes, about 5'2, looks about my age, has a t-shirt on with a hoodie, jeans and flats. Not really a girly girl.

She sticks her hand out. "Hello my name is Lindsey Tuan. What's your name?" She asked all peppy.

I grab her hand and shake it. "My name is Christina but people call me Chris." I answered shaking my head at how ridiculous this is but I was smiling. "Nice to meet you Lindsey."

"Same to you Chris." She said still shaking my hand.

I think I made my first friend in a long time.

A/n

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