Do or Die | A Slipknot story

chapter twenty three

"Thanks again."

The artist shook his head but smiled at me.
"Come back anytime."

I nodded and started towards the door but froze. My eyes seemed to land on a familiar head of what was now died red hair styled in a mohawk.

"No." I whispered to myself. Before I could turn away, the eyes of the familiar person snapped up to meet mine.

"A-alex?"

I shook my head and ran past him out the door.

"Alex!"

Right when my hand grasped my car handle, a pair of arms circled around my waist. The tears began pouring out of my eyes as I was turned around.

"Alex?"

"What, Sid?" I cried.

"Hey, it's okay. Calm down, please."

I shook my head and walked to the bench outside the parlor. He sat next to me and tried to look me in the eyes.

"Why are you doing this?"

"Doing what, kid?"

"You hate me. Everybody does." I wiped the tears from my eyes only to have more follow.

"Alex, nobody hates you. Your dad was just shocked."

I laughed a sarcastic laugh. 'Yes, that's why he hung up before I could even finish saying hi."

He sighed and leaned back. "We miss you, kid. We really do."

"I can't even look you in the eyes, Sid. But I've missed you all."

"Why can't you look me in the eye?"

I turned to face him. "I feel guilty. I overreacted and caused this whole mess. Its all my fault. I don't know how you can even stand to hear my voice right now."

"Kid, I can't even begin to explain how much I've missed your voice. We all miss it. The sarcastic remarks you always made, the jokes you told, your laugh, I've missed it. We all have. I'm not joking when I say it, Alex. We've all hoped for you to come back since the day you left."

"I'm sorry" I continued to cry. I stood up and walked back over to my car. "I should go."

"It doesn't have to continue being this way, Alex. Just come back."

"I can't, Sid! It's all already ruined. I'm sorry." With that, I slid into my car and started it up. Leaving Sid, there, I drove off with a familiar pang of guilt shooting through me.

Really, what was wrong with me? Could I not just go back? They're a source of happiness. They're my family.

But y'know. I'm Alex. A messed up, lost, and confused teenager who doesn't know what to do with her life. Oh, did I mention that I ruin everything?

a/n- another short chapter. They keep getting cut short. Sorry for updating late. Votes and comments are appreciated! I love you all <3 thanks for sticking with me. I'll update later today too.