Dolan Twins Imagines

Imagine #17: You Have a Mental Disorder- Ethan

When you were 16 years old you were diagnosed with severe depression. It ran in your family so you weren't surprised when your therapist diagnosed you. Your depression wasn't something you liked to talk about. The only person that knew other than your therapist was your mom. You were embarrassed to tell people. You didn't know how they would react.
You and Ethan started dating a few years after your diagnoses. You didn't tell him about your depression because you were scared he wouldn't want to be with you. However, you and Ethan had been fighting a lot and you didn't take it well. They always ended in you crying and Ethan confused as to why you always get so upset. You knew you had to tell him to end the confusion but you didn't know how. One day you and Ethan were having one of your usual fights.

"Why don't you want to go to Grayson's party?" He asked after you stated that you didn't want to go to Grayson's New Years party that you and Ethan had already planned on going to.

"Because I just don't want to go!" You yelled.

It's true that you didn't want to go but it was because of your depression and you didn't want to tell him.

"Can't you just suck it up and go? Grayson's expecting us and you always bail on his parties. Please just stop being a baby and go!" He yelled.

You fell to the ground crying and Ethan stormed into your bathroom.

"Fine. I'll go by myself," he said as you saw him getting ready.

You focused on the floor when you saw two feet appear in front of yours. You looked up to see Ethan with tears in his eyes. You noticed your antidepressants in his hand.

"What are these?" He asked.

You didn't say anything. Ethan sighed and ran his hand through his hair.

"Please answer," his voice cracking.

"I have depression. Ever since I was sixteen," you said quickly.

"Is it because of something I did? Is it because of our relationship?"

"No! No, it's genetic. It runs in my family"

"Why didn't you tell me?" He asked.

You shrugged and he sat down beside you.

"Please, y/n. You can tell me," he said.

"It's really hard to tell people. I was scared you wouldn't want to be with me anymore," you said crying harder.

Ethan pulled you into his arms and kissed the top of your head.

"I would never do that. I love you y/n. I'm here to help you now. Okay? We'll stay in tonight. I can make some tea and we'll watch Love Actually. Sound good?"

You nodded and he kissed your cheek.

"I love you so much," he said.