The Sad Truth

Chapter Four

I walked the hallway with my head hung low and my clothes sticky. It didn't occur to me to bring a change of clothes, so now I'm stuck in this.

I should go to class, but I'm not going to. I just need some alone time. I feel so numb. So I walk towards the auditorium.

I check the doors, and it's open so I walk towards the stage and just sit on the piano. I haven't played or sang in a while. Finn wanted to hear me sing. But after today I don't think he'll even get to see me.

I just sit and think about all the horrible crap I've been through. From the taunting to the rape, to my parents never being home.

Sometimes I just want to end it all, but, then there's Finn. I don't think that after all this time I'd be able to say goodbye to him. He's my one good friend.

It's dark and empty just like me, I walk to the center stage and do what I haven't done in a long time,

Waves are breaking in a storm
Tornado sweep me off the floor
See only darker skies in sight
You wanna know what's that like
Like thousand needles in my heart
Whenever time sets us apart
And now my world just crashing down
Now that I can't have you around

Oh why you wanna break away
I'm bleeding
I can see you're now in shades of grey
My memory fading
Oh why you wanna break away
I'm bleeding
I can see you're now in shades of grey
My memory fading

Running fast in hell in rain
The summer tell me I'm insane
Throw a reason out the door
Will make a difference no more
A thousand needles in my heart
Show me the painful from the start
You're wasted, not packing our day
The day before you walked away

Oh why you wanna break away
I'm bleeding
I can see you're now in shades of grey
My memory fading
Oh why you wanna break away
I'm bleeding
I can see you're now in shades of grey
My memory fading

Oh why you wanna break away
I'm bleeding
I can see you're now in shades of grey
My memory fading
Oh why you wanna break away
I'm bleeding
I can see you're now in shades of grey
My memory fading

I finish with tears in my eyes. I sang with all my emotions. Frustration, sadness, loneliness, anger, hurt, and scared. I had a song written down and I sang it. I don't know if it's any good, but it sure felt great to be back here singing.

Clap, clap, clap

I turn around and see Mr.Schuester. He was clapping and he stepped into the light. He was behind me the whole time. Crap.

"I'm sorry, I was just looking, I'll go now" I say grabbing my bag and wiping my eyes
"No wait Rachel, that was spectacular, did you write that song?" He asked stopping me
"Maybe" I answer shy "why?" I ask
"Because that was amazing, why are you hiding your special gift?" He asked motioning for me to sit

I sat down next to him with my head down. I didn't want him to see my tears.

"I don't know" I shrug
"Rachel are you ok? You're so quiet and distant," mr.schue asks worried
"Yeah, I'm fine, I should get to class" I say getting up

I walk away leaving Mr.Schue in the dark. I was about to say, no not at all, my life freaken sucks, but I didn't. Who knows who'd he tell. I just wanted to be alone and sing, but I can't even do that anymore.

The bell rang, and I'm still walking. It's the last period of the day and then it's time for glee. I just have one little problem. Finn. I have this class with him. I walk in late and Mrs.Hunter just writes down something and mumbles

"You're late Rachel, again"

I walk to my seat which just so happens to be in the back, next to Finn. I sit and mumble

"Sorry"

Finn stares at me and playfully nudges me

"I told you, you would look good in something other than jeans and a hoodie" he smiled

I was about to answer and smile and agree with him like usual, but then I remembered,

Stay away from Finn

So instead I ignored him and payed attention for once in my life. He stayed quiet and I could feel his eyes on me. Mrs. hunter was talking about something and Finn whispered,

"Did I do something wrong? Are you ok?" Finn questioned me worried,

He's so nice, but Quinn would kill me if she knew we were friends. So I whisper back,

"Please stop talking to me"

Finn stayed quiet for the rest of the period so when the bell rang and I rushed out he followed.

"Whatever I did, I'm sorry" he said behind me
"Please Finn, just leave me alone" I said on the verge of crying again
"Why? I thought we were friends," he said sad

I turned to face him looking at me with sad eyes. I felt so bad, but I saw Quinn coming so I widened my eyes in fear and turned away, well more like ran away

"Goodbye Finn" I say, and low enough so he can't hear, I whisper "forever"