The Sad Truth

Chapter Twenty-Eight

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It's been two weeks, two weeks since I found out about my dads. I haven't cried at all. I've just been silent. I don't know what to do. My life feels like as soon as it gets better, it crumbles down as hard as it possibly can.

I'm sitting at the funeral as Finn holds my hand. Everyone came. I didn't think a lot of people would, but they did. The glee club is here, my grandparents, my cousins, and even my dads co workers.

I feel nothing, just emptiness. It's like as soon as I get better, something even worse then before happens. I already gave my eulogy and now I have to throw dirt on top of my fathers grave.

It's not fair. One minute they're here, and the next they're gone. I don't want them to be gone. I want just one more moment, just one second, just to say goodbye, or at least tell them how much I love them.

I feel my eyes start to water, but I don't want to cry, I can't, because if I do, then it will all be real. They'll really be gone, and I don't want to believe that that's true.

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Finn drove me home after it all ended. I couldn't bring myself to drive. As soon as I got home I just sat in the car and stared at my home. I didn't want to get out. Finn noticed so he sat with me.

"If you don't want to stay here alone, you can always stay with me" Finn offered
"No, it's fine, I'll just um, I'll stay here" I barely whispered
"Ok" Finn said softly, as if any loud words would break me

I slowly got out of the car and walked to my house. I entered with Finn close behind. It all looked the same but everything just felt different. Its as if the whole place just became sadder and lonelier.

I walked to my room and Finn followed me,

"I can stay if you want.."
"No" I she cutting him off "I just want to be alone" I answer
"Listen rach, I was there when you found out about your dads, and I sat next to you during the funeral and I couldn't help but notice," he said looking at me "you haven't cried" he said sincere

I looked at him with my watery eyes, and I tried so hard not to let it all fall down.

"Can you please just leave me alone" I said barely
"It's ok to cry rach, no one will blame you" he said
"Please, Finn, just leave me alone!" I almost yelled

He looked at me and he didn't look hurt or offended. He just looked sad for me. But he opened the door and turned to face me,

"I'm always here for you rach"

Then he walked out. I just sat on my bed. I don't know what to feel, I don't even know what to do. My whole life just got turned upside down, and I don't even care anymore. I just want my dads.

I lay down on my bed and wrap myself up with my blankets. It feels so lonely and cold all of a sudden. I should be crying, but I can't because I don't want to, because all I want is to take back what I said to my dads about Shelby and act like it never happened.

Maybe if I hadn't told them about her, they would still be here, and we would've had our daddy daughter day, just like they promised.

But that's never going to happen now. In fact nothing matters now.