The Sad Truth

Chapter Twenty

I was waiting outside my house taking deep breaths as Santana showed up with Britney. I walked to the car with my bright pink luggage and got in.

"What took you so long?" I asked trying to steer the subject of tomorrow
"Sorry, I had to stop by somewhere," Santana shrugged as if it were no big deal
"Whatever, can we just go and pick up Sam and kitty now," I asked nervous
"Relax Berry, it's on my gps" Santana assured

I nodded my head and sat back in the seat. I'm so nervous. I don't think I can face him. Can I? I mean, it's been a while now, but it still feels like it was yesterday. I feel so scared and alone, even though I have San and Brit. I think kitty is the only one who really understands what I'm going through.

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At the train station

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"Everyone got there ticket?" Sam asked

We all showed our tickets as we stood there waiting to board. I was shaking the whole car ride. Sam comforted kitty, he's such a good brother to her. I wish I had family like that. But I don't. Which just makes this trip even more scary.

We were almost there but Santana was like taking her sweet time. It was really starting to annoy me. But really I think everything's just annoying right now.

"San! Can you please walk faster!" I say irritated
"Wait! I'm waiting for something to happen......any moment now" she said looking behind us

I wonder what she's looking for? Wait! That's not the point, the point is, she needs to move her Latina butt faster!

"Then can you please let me go in front of you" I asked
"Yeah, yeah, whatever go ahead" she said completely ignoring me

I rolled my suitcase and went ahead of her. Sam and Britney were taking to kitty. So I just stood there. I could really use some water.

"What?" Santana asked

Oh, I said that out loud,

"Nothing" I answered

When I was little, and I would get sad because I didn't have a mom, my dads would get me a glass of water. It became so frequent, they didn't know if I was sad, or thirsty. I've only ever told that story to one person, Finn.

I could really use his many hugs right now. But he's mad, and he's probably going to stay mad for a long time.

I walk to the ticket place and see Britney walking in. I'm about to give the guy my ticket, but I see Santana still looking at the entrance. I don't want her left behind,

"San! Come one were leaving," I yell

She turns and looks at me disappointed. I wonder why,

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Santana POV(again)

He didn't come. Not even for Rachel. I can't believe this. I thought he was her friend, I guess I was right about him. He just another arrogant jock who only cares about himself.

I was about to give the guy my ticket when I hear,

"RACHEL! RACHEL!"

I turn and I see squishy tits running around frantically looking for her. Damn, I guess he does care about her, like a lot. I was about to shout to him, to tell him she already boarded, but the ticket dude just said,

"Miss can I have your ticket, you're holding up the line,"

I groaned and saw there was another two people behind me, and they were making out! So I went for it and yelled,

"FINN, WERE BOARDING THIS TRAIN!"

He looks and he sees me and he starts running. I wait for him as long as I can while the guy is telling me to hand my ticket. I ignore him, and put my hand in the air to shut him up. Finn is now in front of me,

"Did I miss her? Did she leave?" He says exasperated
"No you idiot, she's on the train I'm about to board on too" I say obviously
"Miss, you have to board or you'll miss the train," the guy told me

I looked back at Finn and he looked so desperate. I felt bad,

"Listen tubbers, I have to go,"I tell him sad
"Can I at least go in there to talk to her?" Finn asked the guy as I handed him my ticket
"Sorry it's against the rules, " the guys says sincere

I walk in and glance at Finn searching for Rachel's face on the train. I look at him and shrug with as much sincerity as I can.

"I'm sorry Finn, you came too late" I tell him

Then I walk in as the guy takes the other two peoples tickets. I hope Rachel can at least see Finn showed up.

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Back to Rachel POV

I was sitting in a seat waiting for Santana to hurry up. I don't know how long she's been gone, but I'm too nervous too care. I stare out the window taking deep breaths. I was counting all the people waiting when I see Finn show up.

I stand up from my seat, and check too see if it's really him. He's searching the train, and his eyes meet mine. I start getting happy, maybe he's coming too, maybe he came to help me.

Then I feel Santana take a seat next to me. I ignore it and keep staring at Finn who runs outside. I put my hand on the window to signal that I see him. I want him to come, I need him to come. He's the only one who can calm me down.

He tries to reach up to my window as I look at him with desperate eyes. I need him to come with me. I need him to help me get through this. The train starts moving and I start freaking out. I see Finn running along with my train and I leave my hand in the window.

I stare at him as he runs, and the whole time he's looking at me. I don't want him to stay behind, I want him sitting next to me, telling me everything's going to be okay.

Finn keeps running, until I can't see him, and I still stand with my hand against the window, staring into the darkness of the tunnel, in which makes me no longer see Finn. My Finn.