What will I do? A bbrae fanfiction | ✔️ |

Chapter 19: Her Letter

Beast Boy's POV

How could I let her do that? It should've been me that died, not Raven. Sure, at least Trigon is dead, but Raven the love of my life is, gone. I flopped down on my bed and cried more than I have ever cried in my entire life.
"I'm so freaking stupid!" I said quietly. "If I would've argued my way into dying, none of this would happen!" How will the team do without Raven? Surely we can still try to be as strong as we were when she was alive, but how will we be emotionally. She was my girlfriend and practically everyone else's sister! I was still face down on my bed, breathily heavily into the covers and crying, then I moved my left hand up and felt a piece of paper. I moved my right hand up too, and grabbed it. I noticed Raven's beautiful handwriting on it, it was a funeral note. She was going to plan me a funeral. I looked at the black ink from the pen she used, and I noticed how well she wrote in pen. That only made me miss her more, but I wiped my tears and read the letter silently to myself

   Garfield Logan, or better known Beast Boy, was truly amazing. He was my boyfriend, my best friend, and the love of my life. Anyone here is lucky, or would be lucky to have known him. His jokes never fail to make me laugh, his voice never fails to make me smile, and everything about him always melted the negativity in my brain away. He was always supportive of me and he always gave me second chances. He always tried to fix our relationship so that it would work, and I always loved that about him. He taught me to stay positive through the hard times, and to have a little fun in life when we didn't have to be serious. He stayed with me and told me he loved me even when I had upset him or hurt him. How many people do you know that remind you everyday that they love you, even after you've screwed up with them. Beast Boy was a truly great hero, that surely didn't live long enough. He was the shining light in my world that made me feel special and loved. He always tried to be brave for me so I could feel protected and showed the ultimate act of selflessness and love for staying with me even though he knew he would die if we stayed in our relationship. He fought for me and he fought for our love, and I'm so grateful for everything he did for me, and for everything he did for us. I loved him so much, and I will still love him forever.

I teared up again and held the letter to my chest and hugged it. I thought of a Raven and how much she cared about me, and all of the things that she taught me, and all of the fun we had when she was alive. Her necklace was in my hand. I read it and lightly clamped my fist down on it. I hung it up on a nail that poked out of my wall. The words from the note and necklace were in my head. I sat down on my bed, now with only a few tears in my eyes, for I felt at peace with myself knowing how much she loved me and how great she thought I was. I reached up to my face to wipe my tears. I thought of Raven and I and all of our memories. I let the memories fill my mind and I let them replenish my happiness. When I was finished thinking of all of our memories, I turned my lights out and went to sleep, the letter still in my hands.
"Forever, Raven, forever." I whispered and drifted off into a comforting sleep, and dreamt about Raven and how much I will always love her.