i was texting Kellin when i found out he has a new person in his life and she is adorable. i was to nervous to tell him that i am in the hospital with my newborn baby boy Nick. i set my phone down and they bring in Nick
"here he is!" the nurse whispers excitedly and i smile, she hands me Nick and i hold him in my arms
"he is so small" i say as my eyes water, i look down at him
"would you like me to let the family in?" she asks and i nod
"i will do one at a time so it doesn't get loud and wake him up" she says and i nod, Beau walks in and sits next to me
"want to hold him?" i ask and Beau nods and takes him, he rocks him back and forth and smiles and i smile
"i'll go get someone else to come in" Beau says and i nod and hands me Nick, he kisses me and walks out of the room and Sam walks in and smiles which makes me smile
"want to hold him?" i ask and Sam nods, i put Nick in his arms and i smile. Sam puts Nick on one of his arms then his other hand across him.
"hurry up Sam!" i hear Dean say from outside the door
"i'll see you later" Sam says and gives me Nick. he walks out and Dean walks in slowly and looks at me, he steps up to me and looks at Nick.
"want to hold him?" i ask Dean but he shakes his head no
"why not?" i ask
"i don't want to drop him.." Dean says
"help me up" i say and i hold onto Nick as Dean helps me up. i look at Dean and he looks a little nervous.
"let me see your arms" i say and i put them in the right position, i put Nick in his arms and i smile. Dean smiles and i lay back down on the bed and Dean sits down with Nick and everybody else walks in, they take turns holding Nick.
: later that day :
they bring me home and i lay down in my room, and Beau, Sam, and Dean watch Nick and i get up and walk downstairs and pick up Nick
"i'm sorry, its not that i don't trust you its just that i want to lay with him" i say and they nod, i walk upstairs and i lay down with Nick and Beau walks in and lays with me. i fall asleep with my hand on Nick's belly
