My Nonexistent Love Life

To: Nothing. 8/19/11.

8/19/11(It was a draft for the longest time)

Okay so I feel like too much of a girl to call you a diary, so I'm just gonna call you Nothing, okay? I hope your not too hurt. I decided that I wanted to tell other people about my non existent love life, where we can share the pain and laughter that comes with it. Can I use you for that? Of course I can.

This is kind of awkward, but I made a bet with myself that if I couldn't get a boyfriend by the end of eighth grade summer, I'd write this. So since I'm writing this, guess who won..

Maybe, this can be like Harry Potter and the Chamber Of Secrets, where I write a question in the page, and an answer comes up.

So I'm going to write this- What am I doing wrong? Why don't any of my crushes like me?

Yeah, I'm obviously not as lucky as Harry Potter. All I got was the buzz of my computer and my brothers screaming outside my room. Great, I guess I'm on my own.

The fact that I'm uploading this up here might be weird to you, right? Well guess what? I want you guys to be that book that gives me answers. Although, that's a little weird too, eh?

Well, if your on the same boat as me, have no fear! No experience Kacie is here! I'll describe to you my latest crushes, my embarassing incidents with my crushes, everything. And I'll give you tips and suggestions for you to get your crush. My type of tips.

 Well, let's begin.

I'm not using real names on here.

My recent crush's name will be Mathew, okay?

So, the first time I met Matthew was at my church. I'm asian and thankfully, I don't live up to the chinky name of the yellow people.

Anyway, I do this korean drum thing, called Jangoo; maybe some of you fellows have heard of it? Well, anyway, that's how I met him. We're doing this super big performance, and we didn't have enough people in our group to do it, so we invited the other group Seth and Troy was in to join us.

*Okay, Seth is a guy I used to have a crush on. He's one of those people that I never really got over, you know what I mean? Like a little part of my heart will always belong to him. He's the son of the Jangoo group leader.

Troy is Seth's older brother and he's the son of the leader too; just thought I'd clear that up!*

 And Matthew happened to be in the group.

Damn, the first time I saw him, he was wearing a blue shirt and plaid shorts. Is it weird that I still remember that, even though it was about three months ago? I didn't even like him then, I just thought he was really attractive.. I'm a freak, okay?

TIP NUMBER ONE-

Don't ever confess to anybody that you knew what you crush was wearing the first day you met him, unless it was only like a couple days ago.

Hey, I didn't say I had to listen to my own tips.

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Anyway, he had skateboard hair that came out in little curls. His eyes and hair were both a very dark brown, and he had really good arms.(Thougth I'd add that in there).

Okay; I'm five seven, and asian guys are on average pretty short, okay? No offense. Why am I telling you this, you ask?

Well, to come to darling Matthew's defense, of course!

He's shorter then me by a good couple inches. Okay, don't laugh at me; it's not my fault all the guys I like are short then me!

The minute he walked into the room, though, I could tell he was really mature. He's sixteen and was pretty quiet at first. I pegged him as good looking but didn't really notice him after that, I've got to admit. He just sat on the chair during breaks and played with his phone.