7, 504 miles

01.02.2016

3.47

i'm getting money exchanged. i think i'm going to buy myself a coat and a scarf, i'm excited.

i talked to my friend some more. he's such a dork.

3.58

i feel super awkward for some reason.

4.05

i feel kind of regretful spending so much money on clothes but i actually need these. i'm buying a coat and scarf and striped t-shirt. stupid shit to talk about.

4.08

smoked out on love. makes me think of salmon. kaylia fish last name.

4.15

the lady at the noodle restaurant is so cute because i'll walk up to the counter and she'll say noodles in one of those asian languages to me smile and i'll nod and smile, its so nice that she remembers.

9.16

i'm so fucking shaky. i'm really hungry. i got my shit together and i'm going to dinner. the only thing i can think about is cobain and all the delicious food i'll be eating shortly.

of course with my luck the restaurant is fucking closed. damn it, that was awkward, too. i'll just go to the mall and see if theres any spots open in that one restaurant.

if not then i guess i'll just grab something, fuck sakes that was a disappointment. what the fuck restaurant closes at 9 pm on the weekend?

9.26

nothings really going as planned which is fucking me up. why isn't anyone directing me to a table man what the hell?

9.32

i'm sitting down and i'm super hungry still, i got that same pasta i did the last time i was here and a hazelnut latte. i just really wish it came with more food.

9.41

this latte is so good. it has a heart made of foamy milk goodness. i almost felt bad drinking it. its like edible, drinkable art.

9.54

this pasta is fucken good. no matter how it looks, the flavours are so good.

10.11

i'm gone. going some place to stuff myself with shitty dessert.

it's raining.

i picked up a cookies and cream popsicle and some chocolates.

12.24

footnote: the popsicle was really good.

i honesty cannot get over how great my friends are what the hell im so lucky.

kaylia's just up there, though. she makes me so fucken happy! i will forever love that girl. i remember when i first met her i thought she was the funniest person i have ever came across.

we got really excited about when i come back home and now we just got super all caps excited about the aokigahara forest and the movie even though its not good but fuck off we're allowed to be sadistic insensitive curious assholes, so i guess just hop off if that offends you.

i'm going to write out a list of things to do when i het back with kaylia. i've decided to spend a full weekend with her asap.

reasons why i love my friends:

1. i love kaylia because she's my other half and our moods are always in sync. overall, we're like the same person. she's the yin to my fucken yang. we like all the same stuff and i could talk about anything with her. THIS GIRL JUST GETS ME.
2. i love alisha because she's so caring and such a good friend. she's always there for me and she'd do anything to see me happy. she puts my needs before hers and i deeply admire her for her selflessness. we also really balance each other out. i trust the hell out of this girl.
3. i love naomi because shes so funny and shes such a stupid dork. i always share the funniest times with her and we have the best inside jokes. she doesn't judge me for anything.
4. i love nicole because shes witty and sweet. even though she can be a pain in my ass sometimes, she likes me for me and i love her for that.

i'm just in fucking love with my friends. they're the greatest pals i could ever want in my life. i love all of them so much.