7, 504 miles

01.18.2016

hi before you read this i just want to let you know that it's super fucken angsty and a waste of time. enjoy.

2.58

i have no friends. i've been here for five weeks and i have no friends. i'm miserable. i keep seeing things that remind me of home. speaking of home, i feel like everyone is used to me being gone. i've gotten used to that feeling after a few years.

i am so scared that i'm going to fail all of my classes, which will happen. i haven't put in any effort, i've been falling behind; sulking. i already hate high school enough, now i'll have to take an additional year. fucking bullshit.

4.04

i'm not friends with you because i'd rather be bored by myself.

4.24

everyone is boring.

7.09

i'm always the fucking odd one out.

9.00

i am motivated to work on my homework and healthy eating and keeping my skin clear.

as i type this, i'm in a restaurant. i have less than thirty minutes to eat and then the mall that i am in closes.

i've started to brainstorm about my english projects. i feel good doing it too, it almost feels like a bit of weight has been lifted. anyway, that feeling will soon be gone and i'll feel the same as i was feeling earlier.

it feels like my life has been in a cycle of can you survive this without wanting to kill yourself recently. i'd never kill myself though. don't worry about me, i'm just angsty and lonely and my fingers type faster than i think.