Lost In His Eyes - Jakob Delgado

Chapter 14 - Broken Reflections

JAKOBS POV:

As soon as the door slammed shut behind me a rush of cold air was felt upon my face. I walked home kicking rocks and anything that was laying along the footpath which was quite hard to see at this time of the night. Once I got home I ran up to my room and slammed the door behind me once again. As I paced back and forth my bedroom, anger was starting to eat me alive, the thought of Cara and Ethan and the doubt that swarmed my head once again made me feel broken.The next thing I did was no other than insane. As I rubbed my knuckles with my left  hand, I found myself staring back at my reflection in the mirror, I took a deep breath as I continued to stare back at myself, Pathetic was the word that kept replaying in my head. I tightened my fist and in a matter of seconds I found  my knuckles to have collided with the glass. Trickles of blood dripping down my arm and onto the carpet, the pain causing me to clench my teeth together. As I looked down at my fist, I tried to spread my fingers although the pain seemed to be to unbearable causing me to wince ever so slightly. I then grabbed an old shirt and wrapped it tightly around my fist to hopefully stop the bleeding, although almost immediately blood was soaking through the worn out shirt. The floor was covered in glass as I made my way to the bathroom to rinse my wrist avoiding stepping on any on the way. As the water hit the cuts my face screwed up and I couldn't help but wince in pain once again. The pain was rushing up my arm as I made my way to my bed, rewrapping the old shirt around my fist on the way.

CARA'S POV:

As I sat with my legs to my chest on the floor sobbing, my instincts were telling me something wasn't right and it wasn't just this situation. I put my hand up to my face and slowly wiped my tears that were still trickling down my cheeks rather fast. As I rocked back and forth I heard my phone go off, I picked it up and threw it straight back down onto the floor, not even looking to see who it was. Ethan then walked over to it and picked it up squinting to read the writing as I had obviously cracked the screen as I did so.

"it's chris", Ethan said as he looked up from the phone and handed it back to me.

I wiped my eyes once again trying to get rid of the tears that were restricting me from seeing anything clearly. I then read over the cracks as the message read 'have you seen Jake?', his name brought tears to my eyes once again as well as pain as I bit my lip trying to resist the erge to cry.

I read over it a few times before replying with a blunt, 'why?'

His reply was fairly fast as everything seemed to stop around me, Jakob wasn't lying...

'Just wanted to tell him Grace got home safe and that I looked after her once he had gone to look for you as he started to panic as to where you went haha'

I had doubted him. Why had I done that? He had always been nothing but honest with me and I had treated him like absolutely shit. Maybe this was a sign though, that we shouldn't be together. How could I have a relationship based on no trust whats so ever? I decided to push those thoughts aside as guilt took over me. I have experienced so many different emotions in just one night, I honestly didn't think it was even possible to feel so many at one time.

Ethan than sat down next to me as he pulled me in close, "it will be ok."

I stared down at the floor boards before looking back up at Ethan, "Thanks again for everything Ethan, it really does mean a lot." He rubbed my arm and kissed my forehead, "no worries."

I then heard another phone buzz as Ethans phones screen lit up with a text, 'mum.'

"So sorry for keeping you, You should get home now. Your mum is probably worried sick!"

Ethan shrugged his shoulders as he offered for me to stay at his for the night but I kindly declined as I had changed my mind from before, all I really wanted was to be alone right now and I still had one last thing to do before making my way up to my room. He was so understanding as she hugged me once again before placing a kiss on my cheek, "I will come check on you tomorrow beautiful." I smiled back at Ethan before replying, "Thank Ethan."

"Night Cara."

"Night Ethan."

"Sleep well."

"Sleep well."

We both nodded and smiled at each other before Ethan waved and walked out the door.

ETHAN'S POV:

I felt bad leaving Cara there by herself, who knows what could happen. Worries were filling my head as I made my way up the street. I decided to pass Jakob's house on the way home just so I know he got in safe, even though he probably hates me right now and thinks I was taking sides or worse taking advantage of Cara which I wasn't, I still wanted to make sure one of my best mates was ok and safe at home. As I made my way past I found Jakob's room light to be on and an outline of a boy through the window making me feel a little more relived even though I was still worried about the both of them at this stage. As I was making my way home I heard faint footsteps behind me as I tried to pick up the pace, was someone following me? I tried not think about that as my house was only around the corner now. The footsteps began to get softer as I got further and further from Jakob's house, I then took a sharp turn and almost ran up the driveway to my house which was still lit up with lights, mum had obviously waited up for me.

CARA'S POV:

I had to apologise the guilt was eating me up. I had to see Jakob, I had to. I slowly followed Ethan out, keeping fairly close to him. He turned around a few times as I had to quickly run behind peoples fences and trees to avoid him seeing me. I noticed he went the long way and how he stopped outside Jakob's for a while before continuing his walk home, I wonder what he was doing?

Mum wasn't home yet meaning Jakob's mum probably wasn't either so I decided to make my way up to Jakob's room. The door was open although no sign of Jakob. I slowly walked in looking around as I did so. I walked close to Jakob's window only to find fresh blood stains and glass covering the carpet, what had he done? was he ok? As I bent down picking a small piece of glass off the floor a presence was felt only inches behind me.

"Jakob."

"What are you doing here?" he replied as he clutched his fist.

I then looked down at his hand before asking the question that was replaying in my head, "What have you done Jakob?"

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