Lost In His Eyes - Jakob Delgado

Chapter 16 - Kiss & Tell

CARAS POV:

Three words, so short yet so meaningful. My heart was racing faster than I ever thought possible turning around slowly, my hair drifting with the wind that surrounded me. I immediately stopped running and paused on the path outside his house. Jakob had just poured his heart out to me in just three words, which had already had such an impact on me, I didn't know how I was supposed to react at this point in time. I had no idea what to think, what to do or to say. I stood there frozen for a few moments, before turning around where my eyes then met his which were filled of sorrow and lust. 

A thousand questions circled my head, 'Was he lying?', 'Did he cheat on me?', 'Grace?'
One question seemed to stand out the most to me,
Did he really love me, or was this all a game? For all I knew, he could be lying.
I continued to stare deep into Jakob's soft brown eyes as I made my way closer to Jakob, walking and staring intently at him, making sure I took in every aspect of him.
"Jakob", I paused as he took my hand in his, but before he could clutch my hand any tighter I pulled away. I wanted to ask him one question before giving in to him, before letting myself believe him.
"Do you really love me?" 

After I said it I immediately got paranoid at what his reply would be.

He tucked my hair behind my ear as I rubbed my left arm with my right as the cool breeze was felt upon my olive skin.
"Yes Cara, I do", he then reached out for my hand once again, this time letting him hold it close. "I really do." 

I took a moment to take in the situation I was in. Those three words I never thought would ever come out of Jakob's mouth, just did and I was the person to receive them. There was honestly too much to comprehend right now as I stood, still staring intently into Jakob's eyes, I couldn't bring the words from my head to my mouth. I had to say something, but I honestly was too shocked to say anything, and if I did, I wouldn't know where to start. 

After a short pause, I finally was able to get something out, "Tell me one thing Jakob, if anything is happening between you and Grace or ever has tell me now."
So many mixed emotions bubbling up with in me, Jakob just continued to stare at me, looking almost guilty.
He wouldn't answer me, giving me an idea as to something did happen.
I tried to contain my tears as I bit my bottom lip to stop them from rushing down all at once.
"I knew it..", I then pushed Jakob's hand off mine and turned to run.
"Stop Cara." He had reached out to grab my hand once again, restricting me from getting away.
Tears were streaming down my face once again, not being able to hold it in anymore. What has happened to me lately? I was never one to cry or let my emotions get the better of me but things were changing dramatically, everything was.
"Something did happen, but I stopped it. I swear I pushed her off!"
I could tell Jakob was hiding something more but I didn't want to feed the thought of something really happening between them. I knew all this was too good to be true. A friendship like ours cant turn into love that easy and to think that Jakob had stopped all his games was stupid of me to think. As I tried to gather the words and gain the confidence to speak back to Jakob, one name in  particular kept crossing my mind, Ethan. As much I didn't think of Ethan in the way I did Jakob I couldn't help but feel I owed it to him. He was the one who protected me and didn't leave my side the entire night, unlike Jakob who decided to take up a better offer, Ethan didn't care for maintaining a high social status more for making sure I was ok and comfortable. He introduced me to all his friends, where as Jakob didn't even think to call me over, another reason why giving into him was seeming like a bad idea. 

"Please say something", Jakob interrupted my thoughts as he was becoming more eager for me to reply as he grabbed my shoulder, pulling lightly on my loose jumper that Ethan gave me before he left. Ethan. His name was almost like a constant reminder of what Jakob had done so wrong earlier tonight and what Ethan had done so right.