Lost In His Eyes - Jakob Delgado

Chapter 30 - Stop and Start

CARA'S POV:

As Jakob entered the room, staggering a little as he did so, the only reaction my body made was to cry even harder, tears now spilling down onto my chest as Jakob falls by my side, clutching onto my thigh.

"Cara, whats wrong?", he said quickly, worry clear in his voice.

"You wouldn't care. If you did you wouldn't have done what you did."

"Cara", he sighed. "you know none of that is true, whether it's the rumour about me cheating or the fact that I don't care, they are both and all lies. I care more than anyone Cara and you know it. Now I'm not going to leave this room until you tell me what's going on."

My breaths were becoming shorter every second as I tried to compose myself, my head now beginning to ache from crying as I decided whether or not to just tell Jakob. "They know", I decided I should just let it out. 

Immediately his arms made there way around me, startling me a little but funnily enough I embraced it and pulled him in tight, I had missed this feeling more and more everyday, even though I didn't know if I could trust him a part of me is pushing for me too. He was, well is my 'boyfriend' but he was also my best friend before all this who I have needed to be here for me the past few days and finally I am letting him be there.
The fact that he knew straight away what I meant by simply saying the words 'they know' shows how much he knows me, probably better than I know myself.

"They know about mine too", he softly said into my ear, slurring his words a little. "but let them talk, we both know the truth and that's all that matters, anyone who says anything different is irrelevant, we have each other and Ethan, Chris, our siblings, so many people here with us who know the truth."

As I watched the words fall from his perfectly shaped lips, the tears flowing off my cheeks seemed to go unnoticed even though they were still falling from my eyes.

His face being so close to mine made it feel like we were back in the situation we were in a few weeks ago, where I was happy and 'in love.'
Then again I still was 'in love' as the love never did die just the trust I had in him did.
That then brings me back to the time when he told me he loved me and I didn't say it back, I was now coming to realise how guilty I really feel after that as I did, well do love him back.

I push these thoughts to the side as I sit up straight, wiping my tears as I did so.

"But Jakob you're the only one who can relate and who I would feel comfortable sharing information about it with."

"So why don't you", he says as his hand remains on my thigh, his knees bent and his body crouched.

"Jakob...", I trail contemplating what to say. "I miss her"

"I know, I miss her and my mum too but we don't have to"

"what do you mean?"

"well they're still here"

"I know but.."

"No buts", he says cutting me off. "You can go see your mum whenever you want and you know she'll never give up on you."

I then shoot Jakob an uncertain look.

"Never.",he reassures me as his hand guides it's way around my waist. "and neither will I."