Mental Without You -minizerk AU- (sequel)

Hoping for You

(A/N: which one do you guys ship most. I personally ship minizerk, I mean I have written like two books on them already. Also how many of you guys like emon? I don't really like emon. Like sorry but I find that it isn't cute. I feel like minizerk is a ship where they don't even realize that they are doing it. But yeah. I just want to get to know the minizerk fandom. I feel like we are probably like the smallest so I just want to know a little bit. That's all. Enjoy the chapter 😁)

Simon's P.O.V.

I walked into the room, to see a lifeless Josh lying on the bed. He looked totally pale, almost like he was dead.

I went over and kissed his cheek. You could tell he was alive because he still felt warm and I still got that shock that I would always get when I would kiss him.

"Hey Josh, I know you can't hear me, but I really miss you. Like a lot." I said as I sat down next to him.

I held his hand hoping for anything. Some type of movement. I'm just hoping and dreaming that he is okay.

"Look, I really love you. I always have and I probably always will. I'm sorry that you had to go through all of this shit because of me. I feel horrible. I love you so much J-" I said before I struck down crying in tears.

I couldn't help it hurt so much to see him just sitting there. Not being able to see his sweet smile or here his beautiful. Not even being able to see him swoosh his hair like he always does. It is those little things that mean the world to me. I love him so much. I just want him back.

"Hey Simon, how you doing?" I hear as Tobi walks in through the door.

"It hurts so much Tobi. I can't go through this anymore. I love him so much, but shit always happens to us. It is always us. No one else. It is as if the universe is against us and I think that is what is killing me most. I know that I was just held captive, but I just can't imagine what he is going through." I said as I broke down in even more tears.

"No, no, Simon," Tobi said as he hugged me, "look, I know that I can't tell you that everything is going to be okay. But what I do know is that he has never stopped loving, he has never stopped thinking about you. What you guys had is more amazing than what anyone else could have. How you guys stayed in love throughout this all? I don't really know how. But what I do know is that you truly are in love. There is nothing better than that. You guys are like Vik and I's goals. People that we look up to for our own relationship. That is what you have to remember. What you got to remember is that even though you guys went through such shit, Josh has never stopped being happy. Before he would constantly talk about how life isn't worth, now he would constantly talk about you and how life is so amazing with you. That is how much you have changed. Even if this is our last time, which I'm really hoping it is not, Josh has enjoyed these moments more than any other. That is what we have to remember."

"You're right, I'm sorry Tobi. I just, I don't know. I thought that once everything was over with Harry and Josh's parents, I guess I thought it would be like when we first met. But I guess I was wrong. We are both still leaving in this shitty world and nothing is going to change that, but I have all you guys and that is what counts." I said as we separated.

I grabbed Josh's hand squeezing it. I kissed him once again on the cheek. Giving me warm chills down my spine. I felt a smile smear on my face. Tobi is right, I was even happier with Josh. What we had and have is special. Nothing shall ever compare to it. But I'm not going to lose hope on you Josh. I will get you back.

"Hi boys, I'm sorry but due to the condition that Joshua is in, we have to ask you to leave. You can come back at eight to see him." The nurse said as she opened up the door.

"Thank you very much. Come on Simon, lets go." Tobi said tapping me on the shoulder.

I said my last goodbye to Josh, and then we left.

"Hey guys, can we go?" JJ asked.

Everyone looked really tired and everyone was obviously hungry. I felt bad, but I didn't want to leave Josh.

"How about you guys go. I'll stay here. I can't just leave him." I said looking back at Josh's bedroom.

I couldn't take the risk of him waking up when I am gone.

"Simon, you can't do that to yourself." Tobi said grabbing my arm.

"I just, how about we go out to eat, but I get to come back and you guys go home." I suggested.

I felt horrible that I might have to leave him already, but I don't want to leave him throughout the night.

"Fine, but I am staying with you." Tobi said.

"What?! Then I am staying." Vik said in his annoying whining voice.

"Vik, only two people can stay for him over night, no more." I said just making him pout more.

"Look, Vik one night you can spend without Tobi. That is it, that is all we are asking for. So calm down." JJ said.

"Fine," Vik whined, "but then I am spending every last second with you."

He then clung on to Tobi. Tobi just looked at him and smiled. He wasn't very affected by it, he actually seemed to like it a lot. Just like I would love to feel Josh clasp on to me with all of his life.

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A/N: thank you for all of the support on the authors note from before. I felt really bad doing that because I didn't want you guys to think that I wasn't uploading an actual chapter. But yeah don't worry, there is an actual chapter. Just a little bit of love and hope from Tobi to Simon. Don't worry, it is going to pick up soon. It might be a little slow right now but don't worry about that. It will quicken up soon.