I should not have gotten used to the feeling of being loved because now it has betrayed me and i am alone with my thoughts. A dangerous situation i cannot seem to get out of.
I wake up and walk to the bathroom and brush my teeth and hop in the shower. I turn on my playlist before getting in. I call it my Hessa playlist because it reminds me of the relationship that will never die.
The words that begin to play through the speakers sooth me.
"I won't let these little things slip out of my mouth,but if I do, its you they add up to."
I just now realized what day it is, Saturday. Holy shit i forgot all about it.
"Annabelle Rae hurry up in there." Sharon calls from outside the door. I have refused to call her mother since my life got turned upside down.
"Okay Sharon!"
i get out after washing my hair and get dressed in some high waisted Black shorts and a 5sos band tee before Getting into my car to drive over to Sam's house. We always go to the mall on Saturdays.
"Hello?" I say through the phone
"I'm on my way to come get you so be ready." I continue
"Anna, can we reschedule?"
"Oh yeah, sure. I'll go alone."
"Sorry, I promised Blake that i would hang out with him today."
"You're ditching me for Blake?" I scoff
"Anna, It's not like that. It is one time so calm your ass."
"Well you try being alone, It's not fun." I say and hang up. I guess i go to the mall by myself from now on because her fagget boyfriend is more important than her sister. I get that he "Loves" her, but love is just kind of nauseating to me considering I've never felt such a thing.
I get into the mall and i head straight to Victoria's Secret. I need anew hoodie.
I get in and it smells so fucking good.
I grab a soft blue Sweater that says "Love Pink" On the front and head up to the register to pay.
The little thing was 45 dollars, but it was damn worth it.
.
I get into the car and check my phone.
Harold: Hey sweet thang
Anna: Ew wheres my fuckboy repellant.
Harold: Ow my heart.
Anna: When ya coming over?
Harold: 6 or 7 maybe?
Anna: 6 works.
Harold: See you soon ;)
I look at my phone and it says 5:30. Shit time sure flew by.
I get home and get everything set up. The usual drinks and shit.
"Knock knock." A voice comes from the window. I wave my hand and he steps in.
He is wearing tight black jeans and a white see through shirt. A large tattoo is drawn across his chest, with 2 birds flying above it. Wow.
"Hello." I say and he laughs.
"Lighten up." He says and pulls a blunt out of his pocket. "Here, this will help."
I take the object into my hand and light it and It's different than what i am used to but i kind of like it.
"Thanks." I cough than inhale more, letting it fill my lungs.
"Okay, so what next?" I ask and he shrugs. This is fucking awkward.
"Well... about last friday. If i said anything i shouldn't have I am sorry." I say and by now my weed is gone.
It reminds me of that Melanie Martinez song.
"Mom, please wake up. Dad's with a slut, and your son is smoking Cannabis. No one ever listens this wall paper glistens."
"You're good!" He laughs at my nervousness.
"Damn just making sure."
"Well i can make you sure if you don't quit worrying."
holy fucking mother of pearl.
"Oh yeah Styles?"
"Don't test me."
"I just might have to, I am curious."
"Eager? I thought we were saving that for later?"
"I didn't know what you had planned.."
"well i planned on kissing you but now you have to wait."
"You were?"
"I said i liked you, didn't i?"
"I just didn't think you were serious."
"Why is that?"
"Nothing, it's crazy."
"No, spill."
"I've never had anyone say that to me before so i don't know how to react to it."
"Well here." He says and presses his lips to mine.
Within seconds, I am intoxicated. No alcohol needed.
His mouth moves in sync with mine, and i feel myself getting lost in another dimension, somewhere much more peaceful than this place. He moves his hand away from my waist long enough to rip the white fabric off of his body, than his hands are glued back to my waist. I have never felt like this before, what is this feeling? Is it possibly love? No, is it?
We pull away at the same time and his forehead touches with mine.
"Now how do you feel?"
I smile dumbly.
"Don't tell me i was your first kiss, Anna!!"
"I told you!" I laugh and he does the same.
"Well how do you feel?" He goes back to his question and i shrug.
" I liked it." I smile and look away.
"Well I'll show you more next Saturday." he says and climbs out my window, getting lost in the darkness of the night.
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WELL DAMN
HELLO FROM THE AUTHORS NOTEEEEEEE
well that was lame.
The songs for this chapter are...
Carousel- Melanie Martinez
Wild- Troye Sivan.
In The Night- The weekend
Illusion- One Direction
I won't mind- Zayn Malik
OKAY SO ZAYNS ALBUM IS COMING SOON I FEEL IT.
FJKRE;BANG
6 months and 23 days.
See you guys next time!
All The Loveeeee
-Raina xx
