How could I have been so stupid?I lied about my age to someone who actually cared, and now i ruined it all because I wanted attention. It started out like the movies and now its the ending of a bad dream. I wish I could just rewind from to the part before everything went wrong. This is not a movie I would go see. Heartache on the big screen.
I wish I could restart and not go to the bar that night. I should have just relapsed and gotten yelled at by my fake family. That would have ended better than this and probably felt less hurt than i do now. How did we go from cuddling in his bedroom to me crying in my best friend's arms. This is all so twisted.
*Triggering?*
I let go of her hug and go up to her spare bedroom and set my things down. I see there is some razors on the shelf inside of the shower and I'm kind of temped, who would care? The one person that I loved more than my own family, and the one I loved more than anything ever, is gone with the clouds of gray smoke. And that's when I found my answer. I grab the razor and break off the handle, leaving blades sitting in the palm of my hand. I drag it along my wrist, causing the blood to drip on the floor. One by one i mark my wrists and there's no turning back now. I mark all up my arm, and i realize something. I should have thought of this before. I drag the blade upwards along my wrist. I know this is what i need, i need to just leave and stop all of the pain. Harry is gone because of me, sam is probably tired of my shit and my so called mother is dying of cancer.. and Michael is in Australia. Everyone i loved and cared about is gone, and so am i. I grow dizzy and everything fades to black.
Sam's pov...
"Anna what the hell is talking so long?" I snap and bang on the door. No answer.
"Anna?"
I give up and take a bobby pin out of my hair and pick the lock, and sure enough the door swings wide open.
"Oh my gosh." I cover my face with my hands and bend down to face her. Anna is laying on the bathroom floor, a blade in her hand and her wrists covered in blood.
"Anna can you hear me!!!" I shout and realize i need to call the police.
"This is 911 whats your emergency?"
"My name is Samantha Drake and my best friend is lying on the floor, i think a suicide attempt." I choke and she lets out a sigh and tells me the ambulance is on its way. I have never had to deal with anything like this before. Why? I bet it was about Harry. Did they split up? So help me god if he did this to her.....
Harry's pov...
I take a sip of the bottle of jack and rub her thigh, and she lets out a slight moan.
"Harry, no teasing." She groans and j growl in response. I climb on top of her and pull her underwear down her legs, and shove my fingers inside of her. She gasps and i keep telling myself this is what i need to get over Anna but i feel fucking gross. My phone begins to buzz. I was saved by the bell.
"What Sam? Didn't you hear? Me and Anna are over." I slur, probably from being half drunk and she scoffs at me.
"You prick, didn't you hear? Anna is in the fucking hospital!"
"What the hell happened?!" I groan. I don't really care but let's see what it is now.
"You dick, she tried to kill herself!"
My hands grow sweaty and i begin to shake. I'm such an ass wipe.
"Why?" I ask and run my fingers through my hair. I tend to do that when im fucking nervous.
"Forget it. If you quit being an asshole she's in room 314 at *insert hospital name here*" she says and hangs up.
"Harry, I want to play!" Lucy groans and grabs my dick through my jeans but i push her off me.
"Maybe some other time love, but i have to go." I say and why did i say some other time? I hope i never have to touch anyone but Anna ever again. I over reacted about her telling the truth, at least she had the guts to do it. I still love her, but it would be illegal. Age is just a number.
I realize what i have to do.
Shit, i fuck things up to a maximum level.
I get into the hospital and walk up to the desk.
"Im here to see Annabelle, in room 314."
"Are you family?" She eyes me and i roll my eyes. Fuck off bitch.
"Erm, boyfriend." I lie and she eyes me up and down and nods her head before giving me a visitors pass.
I walk up into the elevator and pull my hair up into a bun and when i get to her door and look inside, i freeze.
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Okay so sorry for the sad chapter :(
But wait ;)
The songs are...
Heartache on the big screen : 5sos
Jet black heart: 5sos
Broken home: 5sos
Sleepwalking: bmth
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- Raina xx
