What Ifs

NEW YORK

I never knew living in New York would be this boring. Few months ago I was just being to stubborn with my ate's about going back to the Philippines but now, Urg! GUSTO KO NANG UMUWI!

I've been here for 2 months now and it's starting to kill me inside. I miss Philippines, I miss my family and I miss Richard so much.

After we fix our wedding plans I flew back here. I don't want to go but I need it. One of my restaurant are having troubles with marketing manager I assigned. I have Ian to help but the case gets to much to the point that I have to cut my stay in the Philippines.

Richard and I are communicating through skype and phone calls almost everyday but it's still not helping my homesickness. I wanna see him now, as in personally but I understand that things are not that easy. It's never been easy.

"Ms. Nicomaine, I know that you won't believe them, they were just accusing me of something I didn't do. They were just trying to be in my position so they tell you those 'fake' malicious act of mine. Miss, believe me, I didn't abused that bitch" Kylie told me after she entered my office.

Today I was supossed to gave my decision about my Manager shouting on my waitress in front of so many people. Actually this is not the first time I heard about her being so rude. I did an investigation, atleast to be fair with her.

"Hm Kylie, I had run a secret investigation about this. Since I went back here, I immediately did my own way of knowing the truth. No one knows about this one except from me. Kylie, I heard so much about you, being rude with your coworkers and as my investigation goes by, I came with a decision." I stopped and handed her an envelope.

I know this will shocked her but this is for the best. I have to do this in sake of my buainess and other people around her.

"You what?! you fired me?!" hindi mapaniwalang sabi nito.

"I have to, Kylie. It's my business we're talking here and my employees who keep this restaurant going. I won't allow someone to ruin it or the people behind it. I'm so sorry but my decision is final." I calmly said.

"You know what? Fine. This restaurant ain't deserving of my talent and skills" she said as she walks out.

nagbuntong hininga na lang ako, hay... stress. I looked at the framed picture of me and alden on my table, I put that last month coz he keeps me inspired everyday.

I got my phone from my pouch. I tap Richard's number... kanina pa sya di natawag and it's very unusual.

To: Love

Love? you busy? miss na kita :(

I waited for few minutes para sa reply nya but I got no answer so I decided to work out some papers needed for my 2 restaurant expansions sa Pinas.

Since I just fired out my Manager I need to manage this branch habang wala pa akong naa-appoint. I almost forgot to ate lunch dahil sa halo halong trabaho ko pero hindi pumayag yung tyan ko at nagwawala na sya kaya't tumayo muna ako sa swivel chair ko and went outside.

"Hi Verna, what's with us today?" I asked on of my crew.

"Hello ma'am! The usual friday menu ma'am" she said lively. Sobrang energetic nya talaga. She's a fil-am but raised here so she really can't speak tagalog.

"Nice, can you bring me some lunch? I really need to finished my papers today" I said.

"Sure ma'am, your lunch will serve right away!" nakangiti nyang sabi.

"Thanks Verna"

I went back to my office and sat on my swivel chair again. While waiting for my food I again focused on the paper works in front of me. Urg! ang Dami!