my letter

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To the girl whose with him now:

He's terrified of storms and when one hits he cries like a puppy.He will literally run to you and try to hide his head under your shirt and he's not even doing it cause he wants to see your boobs.He's actually that terrified.Make sure you hug him and tell him he's safe and storms don't last forever.

He has a favorite t-shirt that's blue with black stripes and he wears it when he needs luck the most.Please make sure it's washed and ready for him so when he needs it it's there.

He likes to go for late night drives but he hates to drive alone.When the mood hits him he'll go anywhere,if he has enough gas he'll drive till he hits the next state over.Always be prepared for late night calls to go on an adventure.

His dogs name is Baylug and he loves him more than he loves himself.He will spend all his paycheck on buying dog toys if you don't stop him and he's constantly worried that he'll get sick.He takes him for walks everyday except for when he's under the weather.Please remember to walk him on those days.

He doesn't like to talk about his mother,it's a very sore subject.If you mention it his eyes glaze over and his body goes tense and he won't speak for at least an hour.At times like these there is nothing you can do except wait.Sit there and watch him but do not touch him or he'll scream and cry that you're hurting him.Just watch him but please don't touch.When he comes to just smile softly and kiss his head.He'll be back to normal after that.

Your hand is now his favorite toy.He will constantly play with it,rubbing your fingers like they're as priceless as jewels.He will lace your fingers together and kiss your knuckles so much you might get annoyed.Please don't.Some find this weird but it's a way he shows affection and it's one of the best things about him.By the time your first month anniversary comes he will know your hand better than you know it.

When he's sick he won't even get out of bed.You have to take care of him cause he won't care enough to do it.Make sure to bring him lots of blankets cause he gets cold way too easily and tell him a stupid story from off the top of your head.He won't even care if it's something childish like the three bears,he just wants to hear your voice.Make him tomato soup cause chicken soup makes him queasy.

When he says the words "when I was younger" please listen.These memories are important and you don't understand how hard they are for him to think of.Listen so he doesn't need to say it twice.

Never ask him about his little sister.I did once and he was like a zombie for a week.

When he cries please please don't laugh at him.If you laugh he'll shut down and you'll never get anything out of him again.When he cries hold him on your lap and tell him that it's okay.Rub the back of his neck and curl his hair around your fingers.That's a calming gesture to him.

Remember to lock the doors cause he always forgets.

Make sure he rolls his car windows up when it rains cause he'll claim he did it but he probably forgot and if the insides of his car get wet he'll blame you.Just laugh if he does cause that'll make him smile.

Buy him hoodies with zippers cause he hates the ones you pull over your head.If you buy those he won't ever wear them and will demand you take them back.

He will always make you watch lord of the rings on Halloween.I don't care if you've seen it a million times and I don't care if you want to go trick or treating or to some party,watch the fucking movie.If you do his smile will be huge and his smile is so contagious it brightens rooms.

His favorite food will always be sushi and ice cream.Not together of course but that is his favorite.He could eat it all day everyday.It doesn't matter what kind of sushi or ice cream,these are his faves.If you don't like them tell him so when you go out he'll pick a restaurant that has other choices.

No matter how many times you tell him he will never understand the text first rule.You will always have to text him first cause he never thinks to do it.If you ask him about this he'll smile sheepishly and tell you how he didn't wanna bother you.It's a dumb excuse but that's the real reason he won't text so don't be upset when he doesn't do this.

He will watch any girly movie you want him to as long as you bring buttery cheesy popcorn and rest your feet on his lap.If he gets bored he'll give you a foot massage and kiss your toes.

When you're bored and wanna do makeovers,tell him this.He'll smile happily and tell you he's all yours and for the next few hours you can do whatever you want and he won't complain.If fact he'll smile and he'll even let you send pictures to your friends when you're done.

If he asks you to hold his hand while he eats,do it.I don't care if that sounds stupid,it makes him feel better.

If you tickle his stomach he'll kick you.Watch out for his kicks cause they're fucking painful.

On Thursdays he disappears for two hours and goes to the cemetery near his old house.Don't follow him and don't ask him about it.He'll tell you when he feels the time is right.

He goes for late night walks when he can't sleep so don't be surprised if the bed is empty.Just go stand outside in a robe and wait,soon he'll come around the corner and he'll be so happy to see you you'll think you're the one that left.

Don't tell him to show his feelings,he'll do it on his own.

He goes to church every year on January 19,March 12 and July 23.He stays all day and if you ask to go with him he'll say he needs to go alone.When he comes back his eyes will be red and he'll look like a soldier whose just came from war.Please hug him and kiss his cheek and tell him you're proud of him.You don't understand what that means but I swear he does.

Please remember he doesn't like mustard on his sandwiches.

Please remember that if you use too much fabric softener in his clothes he'll feel sleepy all day.

Don't forget that his favorite band is the Beatles and he knows all the words to every song and any merchandise you find of them will make him like a kid at Christmas.

Please remember to buy bandaids cause he always cuts himself shaving and that's why his face is stubbly.

Remember to kiss his bruised knuckles cause he punches walls when he's angry and he hates that about himself.

Remember he goes to the gym on Mondays and he likes to stop for cookies at nestle when he's done.

Remember that he doesn't like thanksgiving or turkey and he won't wanna celebrate the holiday with anyone but you.

Remember that his eyes itch when it rains and he never remembers to buckle his seatbelt and that no matter how many times you try to tell him he'll always forget Valentine's Day is the 14 and not the 16.

Remember he hates to use shoes and his favorite video game is megaman and he will always always always wanna go look at the pets in the pet store and even though he tells you he won't wanna buy one he will and if you give in you'll end up with another pet that he'll wanna take care of with you.

Remember these things,please.

And please please please don't hurt him,he's fragile and if he looks at you like you're his world just know that you're the luckiest person in the world.

Signed,the girl that loved him first

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