Do You Really? (Justin Bieber fanfic)

Chapter 57

Somehow I ended up in the situation that I'm seated in a coffee shop facing my mother and drinking a latte. Justin and my dad had tricked me into coming to the coffee shop near our school and told me they were going to meet me there after my support group session but no, instead I met my mom.

To be honest she looks great, better than how once she looked while she was with us and I wish that would make me feel angrier towards her but I don't. I'm only angry at myself because I can't be angry at her for looking great! Her face is not as pale as once it used to be, there are no bags under her eyes and she is genuine smiling even though I ruin her smile whenever I glare at her.  I don't know why I haven't left yet.

"I have been calling you, I guess your phone doesn't work or you changed number since-"

"It works perfectly." I cut her off and she sighs as she looks down.

"I want to work things out between us. I know I was never the mom that you wanted me to be and deserved but I can change! I believe I am changing. Give me another chance!" She grabs both of my hands and I pull away instantly.

"You were never a mom to me! Not once you saw me as your daughter, you only saw me as this loser that couldn't follow your steps to become 'miss popular' in high school like you once were." I grit my teeth and hold the urge to yell at her in front of all the people here.

"I-I only wanted the best for you! High school was the best time of my life and I wanted it to be the same for you! I know it might of not seem like it but that's all I wanted! For you to enjoy your adolescence." My mom wipes under her eyes as tears fill in.

"Well, I'm sorry to tell you that high school has been the worst time of my life! And it's all thanks to you." I get up and storm away from the store, leaving her behind.

It's funny that she wanted that and got me the opposite. High school has been the worst time ever and if someone asked to try it again I would say no. There is no way I'm going back to that hell after graduating. Being surrounded by people that hate me and find joy in torturing me is not something I want to repeat or remember. Now it might be better but all of those years were a living hell for me.

"Ashley!" I hear her call after me and her heels click against the pavement as she hurries to get to me.

I ignore her and cross the road, wanting to get as far as I can from her. I'm beyond mad! I'm beyond furious! They had no right to set me up this meeting with her. They knew I wasn't ready to talk to her so why did they have to force me into netting her? I'm so mad at them for doing this! And I'm so mad at her for being the way she is.

When I have kids I will never try to turn them into something they aren't and don't want to be. I'll make sure to teach them to love themselves no matter what and never listen to other people's opinion. I will never hide my love to them, I'll make sure they will never feel alone and not loved. I'll care for them in a way that no one ever has cared for me. I won't repeat my parents' steps, never! I love my dad but he barely is at home. I know he cares about me but I only wish he would of shown me his care more. I will never put work before my children. I'll do anything so my kids will never turn anything like me.

"Ash-" her voice is cut by a loud noise and it seems like all the blood from my face drains as the next thing I know is that I'm surrounded by the sound of sirens and bright colors that blind my vision as a man stands in front of me, saying stuff but I'm not able to hear him. All I can hear are the sirens of the ambulances.

I blink at the man and suddenly it all strikes me and I can hear the officer asking me if I'm okay to which I won't respond. I can hear him and the sirens but I can't hear her anymore. The officer grabs my forearm to gain my attention and it all goes back like a flashback.