Do You Really? (Justin Bieber fanfic)

Chapter 40

Ashley's P.O.V

I don't dare to look at Justin's direction after what I have just told him and I start scratching my wrists, nervously. I have a big attraction to look for something sharp at the moment.

He stops me by grabbing my hand but doesn't say anything to me. I hear him breath and he runs a hand through his hair, still doesn't let out a word or sound, besides the sound of his breathing.

I don't know what to say nor do. I have been lying to him, even though some people might find this stupid because so what if you have kissed someone before, who cares, but the thing is that I led him believe he was my first kiss and he also cheated on Brittany for me just to stop feeling pity about myself for never kissing anyone when it's actually not true.

"Are you a virgin?" He asks and my eyes widen at the sound of the question.

"What?" I blurt out, shocked. His question totally caught me out of guard.

"Just answer the question." He closes his eyes as he breaths.

"Wh-"

"Answer the question!" He yells making me jump out of fear and surprise.

"Yes, yes I am, why are you asking me that, what do-"

"Promise me you are not lying, please." He let's go of my hand to cover his face as his eyes stay close.

"I promise but can you tell me why you are asking such an absurd question?" I suck my lower lip and he sighs.

"I haven't told you the whole truth about what Brittany said to make people hate you." He says, finally opening his eyes and looking at mine.

My eyebrows raise in surprise and my lips part apart. I can't believe there is more than me stealing boyfriends and sleeping with every single one of them. I wonder what else she can possibly say to make people act the way they do towards me.

"She told me, well not only to me, she told everybody you were her dad's lover." He says and my jaw drops.

I look at him in disbelief and push him away from me, raising my legs to my chest so no part of me will touch him.

"Are you kidding me?!" I yell at him and he bites his lip when he closes his eyes.

"Justin, you fucking know there is no chance that's true, you fucking know!" I get up from the floor and throw the picture I had on my hands.

"I just-" he cuts himself off not knowing what to say and grabs the picture I threw.

"We are both not perfect, okay, you lied and I did too." He says and I snort.

He gets up and glares at me. "Don't do that, yours is bad as mine. You made everybody believe you are this innocent girl that has never kissed anyone one when actually who knows how many people you have and what else you have done!" He points his finger at me as he says those things and I feel the tears forming in my eyes.

"Maybe Brittany wasn't lying after all." He mumbles and my eyes widen.

I can't believe he actually considers to believe her, after all we have been through, after everything, he still thinks Brittany said the truth. I can't believe it.

"You know my whole story, you know my mom is the one who was, still is, with her father but you still thought it might be true that I was with him, I can't believe to what it's coming out of your lips." I shot back.

"Apparently I don't know your whole story. You have been lying to me, and everybody else, since the very beginning, could you please care to tell me who was your first kiss? Maybe it was her dad." I slap him as those last words come out of his lips and cover my mouth so the sobs won't be heard.