{LIE} Lost in Existence [Editing]

Day Ten

Lost in Existence

Day Ten

I wasn’t allowed in the lunchroom.

It was an unspoken rule.  I was never welcomed there.  If I ever went in, it would be the death of me.  For example, last week, when I was just walking through the lunchroom to get to my next class, I had been humiliated.  And I had only been in the lunchroom for two minutes.

Instead, I sat on the dead field outside.  Even though it was uncomfortable and in dire need of a lawn mower, I had nowhere else to go. 

Not being allowed in the cafeteria also meant no food on most days.  Once in a while, I would bring an apple or a bag of chips, but it was usually a waste of my limited money.  I preferred to go hungry.

Despite all that, the field was actually nice.  There was no one else out here except for the birds and insects. 

So imagine my surprise when I saw several figures walking toward me. 

As they got closer, imagine my even greater surprise when I saw that it was Jaimy and her posse. 

At this point in time, my brain is going into overload.  All I can come up with is how she probably heard about the robbery and is going to come over and talk about how he should have killed me. 

Not that I disagree with her, it’s just that even thought the words are true, they still hurt. 

“Hey!  Emo!  We gotta talk to you for a second!” Jaimy called out, snickering.

My breath got caught in my throat and I wanted to roll up into a ball.  Oh no, oh no…

“So we heard about the interesting little event that happened this Saturday,” She started and I waited for the hurtful words to come, my eyes closing.  “And I have to say, we’re pretty impressed loser.”

My eyes snapped open and I stared at her in amazement. 

“I know right?  We’re amazed by you.  It’s a miracle.  But do you want to know why we’re amazed?”  Jaimy continued.

“It’s because the robber didn’t think you were worth the time to kill.”

I sat there, frozen, staring at them.  Of course they weren’t actually impressed by me. 

“Oh but wait, wait, that’s not even the real reason we came over here.  Listen closely to the speakers…” It was then that I noticed Macy was here and she sent me a smirk that had my bones shaking.

I knew I shouldn’t listen to her, but I couldn’t help but do as she said.  I looked over at the school building.  You could hear the school speakers but it was quiet.  But what the words were saying killed me. 

And who was saying them stabbed me in the heart, with every word.

“So I bet you all know about our local emo loser.  Her name is Lucy; a worthless little thing really.  But that’s not the point.  You see, a few days ago, our lovely peer Jaimy, discovered some interesting information on Lucy.  As you probably don’t know, Lucy is an orphan and her parents died a few years ago.  And as none of you know, Lucy is the cause of their death.”

Adam’s voice was now loud and clear in my ears.

All comprehendible thoughts floated out of my brain.  I wanted to cry out in shame.

Adam, how could you do this to me?

Why do I feel this throbbing inside my heart?  Every word that Adam speaks feels like another arrow to my already dead heart.

“Dear old Lucy was a drawer.  And she left her sketch pad behind and made her parents go get it, even though they insisted it was too dangerous.”

I suddenly couldn’t take any more.  It was bad enough knowing this in my head, but hearing it out loud, spoken by none other Adam, was horrible.  The pain was unimaginable.

I quickly stood up, grabbing my backpack and began to run.

“Freak, where are you going?  He’s not done yet!  Isn’t it amazing?  He’s delivering the story perfectly!” 

I didn’t stop.  My only hope was to run and never look back.

Actually, I didn’t even have that hope.

My feet carried me off the school property and further and further away from those people.  But no matter how far I ran, I couldn’t escape the shadows that threatened to overtake my mind. 

I hardly noticed the throbbing of my feet as I never slowed my pace.  My breathing was rapid and erratic.  I felt like I was going to choke.  But that didn’t stop me.

I ran through town, ignoring the yells of people to slow down.  I ignored everything except for putting one foot in front of the other.

It was while running, while my mind was blank that an image came to mind.  That image suddenly explained a lot to me.

How long did I run for?  I don’t know.  All I know is that when my feet finally slowed, I was no longer in town.  I was actually in the middle of nowhere; in the middle of a forest. 

I slumped to the ground, exhausted.  Tired, tired of everything. 

The image, or rather person, who had come to mind was Adam, showing off his smirk that I had grown to love.

Yes, love.

I made the startling realization that I was indeed in love with Adam.  I had just been fooling myself before, knowing I would never have a chance with him.  Although that was now a hundred-percent true, and I had to face the facts.

I was in love with him, someone who hated me. 

I had never been kissed.

I only had three days left to live.

How was I going to solve that?

Did I even need to solve it?

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This is the first day in two weeks that I’ve come home and not taken a nap.  Instead, I wrote.

Yay!

Song of the chapter: Issues by Escape the Fate

Words: 959

What did you think of the chapter?  I don’t know if they were mean enough, especially Adam… I don’t know if it’s realistic enough… *shrugs*

The next one is a filler and is also where Lucy does quite a bit of thinking, so be prepared for that…

I would also like to give a big thank you to ShatteredTearDrops34, i_am_still_here, cheer4u, and Raindrops0nRoses.  And any silent readers there may be… you know… you may want to think about commenting or voting… or even fanning… it would mean the world to me!

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