The Wolf Inside Me

Chapter 22

Chapter 22

The tears were coming faster now, and Clay pulled my gaze to his eyes again. The caring I found in his gaze made me sob even harder.

He was going to hate me. He'd never want to look at me again.

"Kate, what do you mean?" He asked gently. I rather he yelled. This would be easier. Instead his gentle tone broke my heart even further.

"Simon he- he-" But my voice hitched and stopped me from going on.

Clay wrapped me in a hug, still holding the dish cloth to my arm.

He pulled us away from the kitchen, into the living room. I heard David following.

Clay sank slowly into the couch, pulling me onto his lap. He didn't even care that the bloody cloth was ruining his shirt.

"Tell me what happened Kate. Who's Simon?"

I buried my head into his chest, blotting out the rest of the world. I didn't know if I could take this.

"Simon. He was the head of the lab there." I mumbled into his shirt.

I inhaled deeply, relishing the scent. I would never forget Clay's smell.

I sniffled, thinking about what he had done.

"We made an escape attempt. Emily and I. I made sure she got away, so she could get help."

I took a deep breath before continuing. My voice made the little hiccup that happened after crying a lot, and I would have laughed under different circumstances.

"But they caught me again. And Simon, he said I was to much trouble. I thought they were going to kill me Clay."

Clay's arms tightened around me, and I felt something cold hit my forehead. A tear. Clay was crying.

I went on, the whole story spilling out now.

"He put something in my arm with an injection. I though it was lethal. But then I woke up, back in my cell. It was so confusing. I had thought they were going to kill me. Then I realized what Simon had done."

I briefly remembered the moment when I had found out. I had broke down, sobbing, screaming for Simon to fix what he had done.

"They took my wolf, Clay."

I looked up to Clay, expecting him to shove me away, to storm out. To never look back at the werewolf without a wolf.

But he didn't.

"I can't Change. Whatever They put in my arm, it wont let me Change."

Clays eyes turned sad, and I knew this was it. This was were he left.

But his arms just tightened around me further. Was he really going to stay? Then I had to get the whole story out before he changed his mind.

"Clay, I wanted to die. I didn't want to have to feel this.....emptiness inside me. It's like something important has been ripped away from me. I lost my appetite, I stopped doing anything. I didn't care anymore."

Clay swore quietly, and wrapped me in his embrace, curling my body to his. So he wasn't going to leave. Clay was going to stay, here, with me. Even after he knew.

"Simon put an I.V. in my arm, and kept me in his lab, and I would pull it out, and he'd put it back in, then he eventually taped my hands down. So I sat there, waiting for something, for anything to happen."

I spoke the last sentence quietly,

"Even if that something was death."

I buried my head in Clays shirt, crying quietly. Saying it all out-loud had made it real.

I could no longer pretend this was all some horrible nightmare. That I would wake up to Clay's smiling face.

When David spoke, his voice was filled with anger.

"We will fix this, Kate. Well go to the SPA headquarters and find a skilled doctor to take this thing out. If that doesn't work, we'll take reinforcements to their compound, and make this Simon take it out."

David's words comforted me, and I knew we would fix this. With Clay at my side. Unbelievably, he was staying by my side.

I hugged Clay, whispering,

"Thank you."

Clays tears stopped and he just stroked my hair, murmuring over and over,

"I'm so sorry."

Clay would know how I felt. He had a wolf, and for that I was jealous. But he knew what it would be like to live away from one. To have it just out of reach.

I thought about what was to come. Could I trust anyone anymore? I knew my time at the SCA headquarters had changed me. And not for the better.

But right now, with the pain in my arm receding, and Clay's arms wrapped around me, I could believe everything might be ok again.

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That's the end guys! I'm so....sad, happy, relieved, sad again. I love this book and the sequel will be up soon, it's called Finding My Wolf. Please read it. Vote and comment and have fun guys!

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Until the next book,

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