Before I Go [COMPLETED]

A Girl ~ Koichi

Mitzuko and I have known each other forever. Our parents were friends before we were born. I remember the first time I actually acknowledged Mitzuko and understood who she was.

We were four, and my dad had invited her family to my brothers birthday party. At my young age I wasn't a fan of girls but my dad forced me to play with her. At first I refused but surprisingly it turned out to be fun.

After that day all I wanted to do was hang out with Mitzuko. I begged my dad every day to go and see her. Finally a few weeks later on my fifth birthday she came over to our house. I spent every second I could with her.

Sadly the party didn't last forever and we had to part ways again. I hated the idea of loosing her again. (back then her family didn't live down the street from us  they lived in a different city) I don't know what I was thinking but as she walked out the door grabbed her arm. I pulled her closer to me and whispered something in her ear.

I told her I loved her.

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A few years later when I was about 10 her family moved to a house down the street from us. It had been five years ever since I had seen her.

She had changed. She looked drained and her hair was as short as mine. When we first went over to her house her mother asked Mitzuko to take my brother and I upstairs to play.

At first I didn't suspect anything, but after a few minutes I heard my mother begin to cry. I wanted to go down to see what was happening but my brother told me to stay upstairs. When I started to hear all the adults crying I became worried so I asked Mitzuko what was going on. I asked her why she had changed. Why had she cut her hair short? Why did she look so tired? Why was everyone crying? She looked at me with sad eyes and refused to tell me why.

This made me even more upset. I told her if she really loved me she'd tell me. She started to cry but still refused. Then I said the thing I regret most.

I told her I hated her and that I would never love her again. I told her to stay away from me.

She cried so hard that day.

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Three years later my parents got a phone call. Whatever it was had to do with Mitzuko and made my mom cry again.

During that time my mom asked me to do my best to keep an eye on Mitzuko and be her friend. I didn't want to do this but when I saw my mom cry I knew being her friend would make my mom happy again.

The next day I started walking with Mitzuko to school. It was awkward at first but we got closer as time passed.

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One day I decided to test Mitzuko's love for me. I wanted to see if it was still there so I started talking about Hikari. I waited for Mitzuko's response but all she did was smile. After that I assumed she didn't care about me anymore so I went on to pursue my crush on Hikari. I wonder what she really did think of the idea of me in love with another girl.