Before I Go [COMPLETED]

My Time ~ Mitzuko

Once I ask him the question he forgets what we were talking about before. He goes on and on about her but it's ok because now he won't ask me about mom.

She's having one of her emotional days. She just wakes up and remembers this is one of the last times I'll be here. I mean she does that everyday but somedays it just effects her more.

...

We finally make it to school so Koichi and I part our ways. I have 5 classes with him so I'll see him later.

"Bye Mitzuko."

"Bye Koichi."

It makes me sad because I want to be with him for as long as I can. Who knows this could be my last day. I still have 6 more months but that's just an estimate. I could go any day now.

...

As I walk into science I see my friend Ayame. She doesn't know about my disease either. I can't imagine telling her. It'd break her heart. I feel bad about not telling her but I'd feel worse if she knew.

"Hey Mitzuko!"

"Hi-", my legs give out on me and I fall to the floor.

"Mitzuko are you ok?"

I feel nauseous but this is a normal sign affect. I just need to go lay down in the nurse for a bit.

"Yeah I'm ok. Can you tell Sensei Fukui I'm going to the nurse?"

"Yeah but you're ok right?"

"Yes I'm fine."

...

As I walk down the hall to the nurse I run into Koichi.

"Hey Mitzuko. Where are you going?"

I don't want him to worry so I lie."To the office. I forgot my lunch."

"Oh yeah speaking of lunch", he digs in his backpack,"my mom asked me to give these to you." They're cookies.

"Oh.. tell her I said thank you."

"Alrighty, will do. Gotta go. Bye."

"Bye."

I feel bad for Mrs. Kasai. She worries about me 24/7 and I'm not even her kid. I don't know maybe it's because she wanted a daughter and I'm the closest she has to one, but now I'm just leaving. I can't imagine how she'll be when I'm gone.

...

I honestly like going to the nurse. Not because I like feeling bad, but because I like seeing the nurse, Yuko. She's the only person I can talk to about my problems. When I'm around her sometimes I forget that I'm dying.

"Hey Mitzuko. You ok?"

"Yeah I just started to feel nauseous."

"Oh ok. Lay yourself down and we'll talk." I lay down a the bed. There's no one else here like always.

"Soooooo how's your little friend?"

She referring to Koichi.

"He's good."

"Is he still in love with that other girl?"

"Yeah. It's ok though I support him. He could never be with me."

"Ah Mitzuko what are you saying? If Koichi really loved you he wouldn't care what condition you're in. You want to be happy right? Go for him."

"Really? You think I should? But when I'm gone he'll only be sad."

"Maybe he will.. but it's better than not trying. Make yourself happy."

What she says hits me. Maybe I should go for him. Maybe this really is my time.