Shhh...It's a secret. (Jc Caylen Fanfiction)

Chapter 26

Chase's POV

Holy shit. Devin's pregnant. This can't be happening. We were so careful. I was so careful! This isn't happening. What are we going to tell our parents? What about college what is gonna happen? I can't work fast food for the rest of my life!

I guess I didn't realize I was still standing there because about five minutes later Devin walks into her room.

"Babe. Hey!" I step out of the bathroom slipping the box behind my back. I tried not to look suspicious.

"Um what the hell are you doing in here let alone in my bathroom?"

"I was looking for you," setting down the box behind the bathroom wall, I stepped closer. "You don't answer my calls or texts anymore. I was worried. You haven't come to school or the hospital. You've shut us out."

She scoffed and I could hear the sarcasm in her voice, "Right my bad."

"Stop acting like that! Devin I know you're pregnant." My mind shifted to a possibility I hadn't pondered until now. "Is it mine?"

"Are you kidding me? Of course it's yours Chase. I wouldn't fucking cheat on you." Her knuckles were tightening around her phone and book.

"I'm sorry." I cowered. "Why are you acting like this? What's going on? Baby talk to me please, Devin." I reach out towards her, desperately missing her touch. She skids into me and her body collapses in a wailing mess, sob after sob. Her tiny frail hands cling onto me for dear life.

"I didn't want it to happen. This wasn't what I planned. I couldn't talk to anyone all they wanted to do was take care of Brayden. I needed attention too!" Devin's little body shook when she sobbed. Her breath is raspy.

I don't know what to say to her. Dying friend or pregnant girlfriend? Losing a life or bringing one into the world? Which is more important?

I can't take this. I can't be a dad. I know I'll be a bad dad.

"Devin we can do this. We can make this all work I promise you. I love you and that baby. I want that baby."

Her glossy eyes find mine. I glance and see her bottom lip quivering. Leaning down to her hight, I connect our lips. I missed this passion between us.

When she pulled away I walked her over to her bed. We pulled back the covers to lay down. I wrapped my arms around her so I could pull her close. I didn't want her to leave. Her eyes closed and I kissed her forehead, then kissed her stomach.

Brayden's POV

"Please just let me go see her!" My broken scratchy voice pleaded to the doctor.

"I can't let you do that. You have another round of chemo in an hour and this one will be tough." Dr. Hill proceeded to explain.

My mind was ragging and I was too angry to listen to her and this stupid crap about cancer. I hate cancer. I'm not gonna find a bone marrow match. And I'll miss prom and graduation.

"Brayden Smith are you listening to me? This is about saving your life!" She strode over to my bed and grabbed the rail.

"I said 'Harvey is a match.' He can give you bone marrow if your parents give consent. "

"No. Defiantly not. I'm waiting. Harvey is a kid!   I can't do that to him." I violently shook my head to get the point across which became a violent cough making it seem like my entire world seem like it was quaking.

"I'm afraid you don't have a choice. Now listen to me, you will finish more rounds of chemo over the next three month and then you can go home and we'll work from there." Dr. Hill's expression adjusted and I knew there was something she wasn't telling me.

"It's progressed hasn't it...?"

I dreaded the answer I already knew.

"I'm sorry Brayden." She set her hand upon the small of my back.

I squeezed my eyes as tight as I could trying to blockade the tears and anger building and boiling up inside me. My mind screamed and clawed at my insides.

"Please..," I pleaded. "Let me see Devin." My whimper turned into a soft shudder. I just wanted my best friend. I needed her. I haven't talked to her or hugged her and all I wanted was to cry to her. I wanted to tell her everything and I wanted to be by her side but I'm so fucking stuck in this hospital that I can't even get out of my bed.

"I'll send my intern, Katie, to go get her and I'll have the nurse bring up a cot for her. I know you're tired of the hospital so let's just make it like your room at your house. I'll have your family bring your things when they come for dinner." My eyes were still closed as I took in the words the doctor had to say. I nodded okay and kept silent.

I could hear the door latch closed when she left. My body was silent.  My mind was silent. All you could hear is the faint sound of my heart beating along with the rhythmic beeping of the machines I'm attached to.

"Please God," I said under my breath. "Help me fight this battle so I can love everyone from Earth. I need this and this life. It couldn't have ended this quick. This isn't the end." Stopping, because I knew it was pointless, I reached over and turned off my lights. I knew my body begged or this nap to get rid of all the toxic thoughts in my head.

I want Jc to hold me and I want Devin to be my best friend again. My world is falling apart and I'm not sure I have enough strength to fix it. 

a/n
hello you hate me I'm sorry but here is an update and I'm sorry it sucks and so does this story but I'm trying love y'all probably not another update coming for a while because like always I'm busy and school is stupid.